Finally...but

If you did read my blog, you would know i have a trainee who had sat for exam last week and this exam is going to judge her ability to stay in my group.
You may also know that i keep on mentioning about her stupidity and bad attitude and i think it is super obvious for me to show that i don't want her.

Anyhow, that's not what i can judge and decide but only play my role in training her. Frankly speaking, before the exam, i trained her with true heart and i also expected she could pass the test without much major mistakes. That's what i think, sincerely!

However, result shows that i am over-expected her ability. Result proven that she is not capable to work in the group and she failed in fundamental concept which it should not be accepted. My boss wrote a report to the sector head and he then made final decision that she is not suitable for us and will arrange other job for her.

Yesterday, we (my ex-boss, current boss and me) told her (my trainee) that she wasn't suitable for taking this job. She seems don't understand and keep on request for appeal. She said that was just careless mistake and she will be able to make it better for the appeal. She spoke a lot but we are helpless in this condition because the sector head had made the final decision. We were just there to annouce the news to her.

Looking at such condition, i suddenly feel symphatize to her. She is in her 40 now. At this age, she has to suffer this, i believe she is in great pain and desperate now. Although i always want her to get out from the group, but i don't feel any sense of happiness yesterday. I felt weak..because i believe, if i am in her position, i will be so weak and upset. However, i also understand that the fact is cruel and if i show my sympatize to her, it is cruel to myself. Just wish her luck now..hope the sector head can arrange a place for her where she can excel and work happily.