Worries and pressures

Lately, my face have lots of breakout.
There are many reason for those breakouts. Can be new environment, can be lack of water and vegetables, can be worrying of being lay off, can be worrying about bf's employment pass application status. Can be everything!!! Really over stress now!

With current economic condition, every where is full of news like retrenchment..this and that. Thanks god, until now there're still no such news from my company, but i am damn worrying about this. Worry to be the last in first out! What a pity!

Before this, i am happily annouched that my bf get the job offer and he is coming to SG very very soon. But this economic crisis really affected someone.
He been informed by his new company HR that they will advice his starting date after getting employment pass for him.

I read his mail and suspected his first application has been rejected and the company is now appealing for the application. I am damn so worry what if touch wood...what he gonna do and feel? If it's not guarantee, i would advice him to play safe take back his resignation letter now (if his boss is ok with it). Else i don't know what will happen.

But if i keep asking him, he will feel very pressure as well. I don't know how to advice him, thinking to talk to him indirectly so that i wont hurt his feeling...

Wish everything going smoothly and pray for god he can get his application pass approved.

New blog created

As you all know, i have relocated to Singapore for my new work.
Therefore, i have created another blog which i could update my life at Singapore there.
So, please visit http://joyce-newlife.blogspot.com

Here, i will keep it private to only my VIP friends where i can update some of my privacy and secret feeling here.

Again, please visit my new blog at http://joyce-newlife.blogspot.com

Update...

Well, i have almost forget about this blog...again!
Actually i am too busy to maintain this blog at this moment...because i had tendered resignation and have to settle all my stuff and train person who are going to replace me. So...no choice i am too busy right now..

Yup...you read it right, i have already resigned from this company, serving my one month notice now and going to last on next friday. Yeap!!!

I will be start working soon on 22nd September at Singapore. Yes, Singapore!
A lot of worries and nervous hitting me right now.. yup lots of uncertainty...Not sure what am i going to face there. I have never try to go so far alone. Hope i can get use of it as fast. hehe

Ok, stop here. gonna continue working.

Luck

Remembered few years back when i did my industrial training at Gurney Hotel Penang, i had a chance to join a seminar about Tarrot card spoke by a Hong Kong famous fortune teller with the nickname of Prince of Horoscope (星座小王子).

It was a memorable one that i can always remember because he said that i am the most lucky one among all (about 30 - 40 person in that seminar). You must be feeling surprise why he would say that. Let me tell you what happened and make him say that.

There was a session where he asked all of us to pick one card (among 72 tarrot cards) and he will tell us about our luck and fate for free. I chose mine and everyone chose theirs. He approached one by one and gave us some words. After that he asked if it is correct or not. When my turn came, he took a glace on the card i chose and said to all that i am a very lucky person. Whatever i want, i will get. No doubt, it was so surprising to hear such words from him. However, i don't believe it. But my friend who followed me to the seminar said that it's true that i am such a person.

Now, i start to believe that i am really a lucky person. Whatever i wish, i will get. Although not everything good happened to me, but it is never something worst. I really appreciate my good luck and hope i can continue good luck with my future..

It's time to work hard

Since April, i was so demotivated due to poor increment and not being promoted..
Everyday i worked slowly and lazily with my mind just to pass my working hour and go back in time. No performance, no follow up, nothing from me.

Boss asked me to do this, i do that.... sometime i even wake up with stressful mind thinking of not going to work. I was so depressed. I know i was not good enough, but i was so dull to improve.

Yesterday, in sudden.... i think about this issue and get to know that all of this will not bring a single benefit to me. It's time for me to change and to accept the facts. Great...luckily i didn't wait until next increment period to say this words. Then...i can only regret.

Pangkor island

Yeah..beaches beaches....
Oh ya, my vacation plan has been re-activated.. but plan has been changed to Pangkor island instead of Langkawi...

Received lot of comments from friends that there is nothing in Pangkor...
Why not langkawi, how about tioman, let's go phuket, crabi is cheap... this and that...
Ermm...bit disappointed with this changing plan, but it is much better than none. Right?
Gonna appreciate... yeah babe!
I will be going to beach so soon.. yeah yeah cheap beach that i am still affordable.

hehe...6 of us in gang will be going to this island on 12th and back on 14th. Hope i can take a lot of nice picture and show you here.

It has been so so so damn long time i never go to beach. It's time for sun bath, snorkelling, beach walk, sunrise watch, swimming, ...etc so many things
Yeah..looking forward for the time to come

飞啊飞。。 飞啊飞。。 飞啊！

好想有对翅膀让我自由的飞翔。
到哪都行，就是不想原地踏步。

好闷哦。如果可以不必工作，那该有多好？
如果可以到处去旅行，那又有多棒呢？

Langkawi

Lately, i was getting excited for the trip planned to Langkawi on the coming 12th July.

A lot of expectation has been inserted into this plan.

At 1st, i don't dare to dream as it is very frequent for the gang to cancel the trip.

5 out of 6 was confirmed and waiting for the last one to say 'ON'.

However, the curse was activated again. It's hard for us to have holiday together somewhere nice. The last one finally said "NO" instead of "ON".

Because of this, the gang cancelled the trip. I felt very disappointed as why should we cancel a nice trip just because of one person cannot join. Are we really so inter-dependant on that person?? The result proved that the answer is "YES", the gang think the trip will not be fun without the last person who has joker characteristic.

So..no fate with Langkawi again..again and again for 25 years. muahaha.....

是你吗？

那天在机场遇见的人是你吗？
那个带着鸭帽，穿着长袖的红t-shirt，配上蓝色长裤的人是你吗？
就连那站着，双手交叉的样子也和你很相似。
我不敢肯定，因为我根本没有时间去确定那人是不是你。
之后我在回想，如果我有时间，我会过去确定吗？
如果真的是你，我会和你打招呼吗?
曾经我问你，分手之后还能成为朋友吗？我们的答案都是“能”！
可是，事实是不行的。
现在的我虽然有那种庆幸当日的分开，
但我想我还是没有勇气与你再度成为朋友。

朋友，你还好吗？谢谢你，让我今日更懂得如何去珍惜我身边的人。

我恨我爱你

最近在追看台湾的超级星光大道。。上一级听见了一个十五岁的女生唱了这首阿妹的歌。
真的很感动，也觉得很好听，所以刚才去下载了。。

阿妹 《我恨我爱你》

面带微笑离开你怀里
我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里
二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你
就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期
多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系
一点小伤而已
你可以很放心
我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮
都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你
oh~我爱你
只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的…
.新恋情
没关系…
我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句
我爱你

Waiting and waiting

Last week, i have posted out few resume for job application. Waiting and waiting until today, i still get no call or email from any of the company.

Actually, how long will they complete their short list progress and give you a call??

It has been so long since my last job application. So i forget how long i suppose to wait. I remember not too long, i get it around one or two weeks.

Arghh..really nervous. Hope they will short list me and give me a chance to interview..

Rabbit emoticon

Does anyone know what is the name of this rabbit?

His name is Tzuki. (兔斯基)

I like this rabbit very much.. hehehe..especially the emoticon in MSN. Very cute and meaningful.

I found the creator of this cute rabbit Tzuki.

Check the website http://blog.sina.com.cn/wangmomo

传言

昨天回家的时候听见了一个奇闻。有点惊讶，有点担心。

之前在四川省地震前也有过这样的奇事，那就是很多的蟾蜍迁居。当地政府说那是好的预兆，结果发生了地震。

前几天在广州的徐闻县发现了大量的螃蟹从海里爬到树上。将近六万只！可是当地政府说是气候比较反常，动物不太适应而已。没有地震危机。

近日，黑龙江鸡西街头看到蛇结队穿越马路，也算是奇景。可是专家说这种现象属动物的正常迁徙。

我怕，中国可能有还有其他的灾难即将来临。。希望真的风平浪静。

My Celebrity Look-alikes

Yesterday, i am extremely boring and no mood to work. So i surfed the net and found out this interesting website www.myheritage.com
In this website you can upload your own photo and the website will scan your face and check which celebrity do you looks alike.

Haha.. very interesting huh?! I uploaded one of my currect photo (of course with spec) and most of the look-aliked celebrities are male with spec. So, i think the website match me with celebrity who wear similar spec like me.

Then, i uploaded my photo (without spec) to get a more accurate result. Below are result i get.

Feel very doubt with above result, i upload another photo with different angle. Then, i get another result like below. hahaha....

Oh ya!! you must wondering why my photo (in the middle) are so blur. Actually, i photoshoped my picture.. hehe.. Sorry for that.

Jumping Rope Exercise

Last saturday, i bought a jumping rope from nearby supermarket. Some people said jump with jumping rope can make you slim! You can exercise your hand, your leg, thigh and hip...all in once.

What you need to do is jumping for 500 times daily! @.@ crazy!!! I tried to jump yesterday after i did my car wash.. i only managed to jump 50 times in total.. Not non-stop. I think i'm only able to jump the most 20 times non-stop..then every 4 times i will stop!

hahaha.. feeling impress with someone who able to jump for so many times. Anyway, i can imagine if i able to jump 500 times daily, most probably i cannot walk next day. Only 50 times, i felt my leg muscle already tighten up... haha...not to mention about 500 times..haha

Insomia

OMG! I had insomia last night. Trying so hard to make me into sleep, but it was useless!!! I think the charcoal white coffee i drank yesterday morning really...super duper effective!

Normally i will easily feel tired during weekend due to nothing to do. So, to avoid i sleep a lot, i thought drinking a cup of cofee do help. My goodness, it was so great until i felt so energetic for whole day.

I was still very alert at 12am midnight! haha... maybe i think too much about JJ.

Finally...but

If you did read my blog, you would know i have a trainee who had sat for exam last week and this exam is going to judge her ability to stay in my group.
You may also know that i keep on mentioning about her stupidity and bad attitude and i think it is super obvious for me to show that i don't want her.

Anyhow, that's not what i can judge and decide but only play my role in training her. Frankly speaking, before the exam, i trained her with true heart and i also expected she could pass the test without much major mistakes. That's what i think, sincerely!

However, result shows that i am over-expected her ability. Result proven that she is not capable to work in the group and she failed in fundamental concept which it should not be accepted. My boss wrote a report to the sector head and he then made final decision that she is not suitable for us and will arrange other job for her.

Yesterday, we (my ex-boss, current boss and me) told her (my trainee) that she wasn't suitable for taking this job. She seems don't understand and keep on request for appeal. She said that was just careless mistake and she will be able to make it better for the appeal. She spoke a lot but we are helpless in this condition because the sector head had made the final decision. We were just there to annouce the news to her.

Looking at such condition, i suddenly feel symphatize to her. She is in her 40 now. At this age, she has to suffer this, i believe she is in great pain and desperate now. Although i always want her to get out from the group, but i don't feel any sense of happiness yesterday. I felt weak..because i believe, if i am in her position, i will be so weak and upset. However, i also understand that the fact is cruel and if i show my sympatize to her, it is cruel to myself. Just wish her luck now..hope the sector head can arrange a place for her where she can excel and work happily.

一个，两个，半个

收到一封来自好朋友的forward messages, 突然间有点感触。。

一个人可以呼呼的睡觉而不用考虑浪费的时间；
一个人可以不用考虑人情味的存在而禁锢自己的思想；
一个人可以把天分成两半而不用考虑天会塌下来

两个人是幸福的，在一个人和另一个人的心重叠时。
两个人可以互相搀扶数着天上的星星而不用考虑事情的烦琐；
两个人可以共同创造快乐而不用担心忧伤的侵袭；
两个人可以一起观赏风景而不用担心风景的语言空白；
两个人可以彼此倾述而不用担心自言自语的孤单；
两个人可以品尝爱的滋味而不用担心自己会演化成冰冷的石头。

半个人是寂寞的，当一个人的心被另一个人带走时。
半个人只能数着黑夜的眼睛去回味曾经；
半个人只能发呆在风景面前去体会寂寞；
半个人只能计数着时间去接受忍耐的缓慢；
半个人只能灌着酒精去麻醉自己的记忆
半个人只能拿着电话筒却不敢再去寻找失去的心；
半个人只能闯进喧闹的人群去卸下孑然的包裹；
半个人只能带着半只翅膀顶过风雨；
半个人只能填饱肚子却不能给空白的心涂上颜色；
半个人只能独自忍受着不能粘合的玻璃碎片蛰出的血泪

一切都在轮回，最后，我们会是几分之几个人？

我也曾近从一个人变成两个人在变成半个人。
当我好不容易变回一个人的时候，我遇见了另一个人。
现在我+那个人成了两个人。
不过他不在我身边的时候又好像是一个人。好无聊！
希望以后的日子都是两个人，幸福的，快乐的。

希望大家都能遇见另一个人，过着快乐幸福的日子。

Regret

Have you did something you have regretted?
I did!
I was too emotional and too loose last week that i told my ex-boss that i am not happy with current working condition.
I told him that i was freaking unhappy with my increment and told him those unhappy stuffs with my leader.

I always tell myself to control myself and do not let him know this time.
In fact, i spoke it out emotionally!

I've been here for more than 3 yrs and within this 3 yrs, my ex boss is like a friend to me. We shared a lot of feeling and i told him things happened to me like he is my confidant! For so long, he never betray my trust and i believe him.

Last time, when i told him about problem occurred between me and my trainee, he talked this matter to other managers and finally he helped me out. Frankly speaking, whenever i talk to him, i expect understanding and don't expect he can help me out. But i know even though he told my problem to others, he was just trying to help. So i don't blame him.

After this incident, i told myself.. although he is my ex-boss, but he is still a manager of my company. He stands with the company. So, i shouldn't tell my problem to him anymore. But last week, when i was having a conversation with him, i exposed my feeling to him and unintentionally spoke out the problem i faced now and my decision to resign.

He tried to understand why i have such a decision and to pursuade me. But i didn't give a chance. Because i have decided and i hope nothing to pull me back.

Now, i am really regret. Regret with my uncontrollable emotion and attitude. I should not tell him. Not only him, i should not even tell anyone in this company i wish to resign. I should plan it secretly and leave with pride.

My Dream Car

Do you own a car?

I think i had promised one of my best friend to post photo of my lovely car here, but... think that it is just a very common and cheap car, so dare not post it here.

Anyway, it's really a lovely car for me, very oil saving, great to drive and...lots more! You must be wondering, what car is that! It's a Kelisa in metalic red-orange. So, i named it "Oren-Gee".

Yup "Oren-Gee" is no doubt a small car, infact, i like big car. Not those types of big car that in your head now. In actual, i like Family car or four wheel drive type of car.

Guess what is my dream car? Do you have dream car?? Sometime we mentioned "Dream Car"..Dream car.dream car, car we can only owned in dream..hahaha.. So my dream car is...

Yeap!!! Nissan Murano!!! I love it so much.. I am not someone who are smart in car, so don't expect me to tell you what's the advantage of this car. i am just having first sight love with the car. Hehe...

So, whenever i saw a Murano on road, i will always tell my bf, how much i want to have that.. this and that!!! cannot stop talking..So wish to have that..really! I always have fantasy that i will win this car through lucky draw or lottery..(although i don't buy lottery nor have any luck in lucky draw)

Lately, Perodua launched it's newest CRV type of car named Perodua Nautica. It's a family type of car or a successor model of Perodua Kembara or Kenari.. When i received Citibank leaflet that i can have 12 months of 0% installment to pay for downpayment, i happily called to my bf who are now at outstation that i want to change car! I was happy, because these type of car normally more than RM100K. Not to mention that Nissan Murano costs RM300K ++. So i thought i will be willing to purchase this Perodua Nautica since it is a national car.

Next days, i went to office and checked in internet. Oppss. Rm99K on road price. So...so..cheap>? No no!! I expect lower, because it is a Perodua. Anyway, it is just a little bit bigger than Myvi and Myvi is just around RM55K, so paying extra RM44K for a Perodua Nautica don't seems to be worth. So, just forget about it!!!!

Updated News: Watches

Updated news:

I just get found this CASIO Baby G series watches from the net. Looks nice, but i don't like digital watches. It looks like....ermmm how to say?? I can't fully trust those electrical stuff inside.. Prefer mechanism..Analog watches.
These are combination of analog and digital..hehe i like it.. but it seems like something lacking here. Is it not enough striking? might be...like too plain huh? Looking back with all watches i have..found out that most of my watches are so plain, this time gonna be something sharp!

Watches

Lately, i am thinking to buy a new watch. hehehe, you must be wondering what type of watch i want.

Errmm... Actually, i already have both casual and formal type of watch. But...i think they are not "chio". I want something big and "chio".... Haii.. ppl have different thinking at different stage of life. When i was in primary school, my mom decide what type of watch i wear. In secondary school, i want something funky! At colleage, i want something affordable. Initial stage of working life..i want something elegant and formal. Now...hehehe...i want to be "Chio"

Anyway, i haven't found my "chio" watch yet...perhaps is not i couldn't find, but i have high expectation, searching for something which cannot be too cheap looking, outstanding, long lasting and brand!! I found one at SWATCH, but.. i already have 2 SWATCH, so thinking to try some other brand, anyway...paying RM500 for a SWATCH don't seems to be worth.

You must be thinking, why my taste so funny, it's a man watch right? haha... Yup, but it's a unisex watch... That's consider "Chio" for a lady to wear men looking watch! kaka... i like the mechanism but...

Yesterday, i found few good looking watches that match my requirement of "chio" in the internet, not too cheap style, and branded! But... i'm not sure of the price of the watches, so still have to do some survey at the shop first.

Guess what is the brand? It's from FOSSIL. Quite special, with the combination of analog and digital. Hehe..what do you think?

Besides, my friend also helping me to search at Hong Kong, and he found something quite special. I don't like the rubber feel. However, the design is quite special but this type of design might not be everlast. So...don't want to buy..

I also found this special type of design in internet. The brand is NOOKA. Quite nice huh? But it's just selling at the North America region and even you can purchase online, but they don't ship to Malaysia. So, forget about it. Anyway, i think this style will get outdated soon.

Btw, any good recommendation from you? Please be reminded, i want something Chio...and nice...trendy but cannot easily outdated.

爱情塔羅牌

刚才好玩，在facebook加了个爱情塔羅牌的application. 占卜了之后竟然有这样的结果。好恐怖啊！。

死神 - 終止 (逆位)
塔羅牌義
死神是一個結束、終止，但已代表著另一段的生命。在基督教來說，耶穌是經死亡才得永生。在佛教來說，人死後會投胎，也就是說，若是樂觀，「死亡」不可怕。因此只在於占卜者及問卜者的心態。有人因抽中這一牌而去自殺，那是大錯特錯。他不只是代表死亡，也代表舊去新來的改變（可能變得更好）。而且未來是可以改變的。

愛情運勢
你現在不願意接受分手的事實，不肯放手，害怕這個改變。你為了抗拒這個改變，可能會採取一些激進的方式。但是這樣會傷害到一些人，建議三思而後行。即使離開了他，太陽照樣每天東升西落，不要想不開，要冷靜。

好端端的，为什么分手啊？真是不准啊！。

Funny Experiment.

Just wanna share with my best friends here an experience i had made on my new boss. haha..so funny.

If you still remember, i think i said that she is very emotional and small hearted.
Anyway, that's is just my perception! It cannot be proved with any case supported.

So, i made a quick test on her during the past meeting.
As i mentioned before, our group will have a weekly meeting and in the weekly meeting, one of us will have to share our experience on our job. This week, there's no exception, still there is someone who are doing the sharing.

Right after the sharing when someone commented on who is the project leader, the presenter said sorry i do not know who. So in very quick response, my new boss replied.. XXX is the project leader. haha. i found a good opportunity and i said NO. YYY is the project leader. This year is unlike previous year, YYY is the project leader this year.

Hehe..i observed her facial expression so carefully and i see her face slowly turn into dark.. Great! Experiment one succeeded! Anyway, with expectation, i was waiting for the second outcome, ok i expected more! hehe

In about 10 mins, the result came out! She commented that she likes the way of presentation and the pronunciation, the grammar she used and how she carried the presentation. She also said "unlike last week presenter (me me!! i am the last week presenter), i think i like this!" Hahaha..... so excited, i nearly laughed out loudly! Wow.. i think her high blood pressure increased again!

Anyway, what do you think? I am so happy, until today! Because i can predict what she gonna do! But my bf commented that i should not do this experiement since i already know she is "small hearted". I might have tough day under her, but i think i am just entertaininig myself here so that i can work happily to be under her. haha...Yeah...give me five! Whatever! Nobody cares!

导盲犬小Q

请问有人看过{导盲犬小Q}的戏吗？

听所很感动。不过，我的目的只是想看狗狗而已。

呵呵， 如果你有这部戏或是看过这部戏， 可以分享吗？

听说是韩国片。。。主角(狗狗)蛮可爱的啦！

应该是黄金猎犬吧！

Cute sharing + my inner voice

Accidentally found this from one of the blog in google when i was searching "evil dog" this morning. You can go to this blog, there are more cute doggy in great words, just click here.
I quoted few which i felt it's very close to my feeling lately and added with my own words.

Yup, Happiness comes from self. It's decided by our own self, if we wanted to be happy, we will be happy. I mean we can actually choose our reaction, whether we wanted to be normal, happy or angry because of something happened. Anyway, there's related to personal emotional intelligence. I am not positive thinking person, so i always make myself upset and sensitive!

Hehe...jealousy is also my problem! Sometime really broke my head because of jealousy! haha not that serious. In fact, i think my current bf plays very good role in this part, to reduce my jealousy!

Err..hope our relationship is not going to be short one. Hope can be everlasting, although i understand that there is no such thing called everlast!

We been aparted for a week. hehe Yup, just a week. Not too long, but to me.. this time is difference. I feel differently for the feeling of waiting. Waiting days to pass and waiting for your return. Now, i just wait for the night to come sooner, to hear your voice.

Haha..your love bright up my life, it becomes more colorful with you. But without you, i want it to be brighter because... i just wanna prove to myself that..with you, my life are so great, but even without you, my life is still good.

This is great, ya! Sometime i care too much on those i can't control. Got to learn to let go and let things go naturally!

Hehe..i love the doggy, looks so cute and cool! Hope you like it too!

Looking productive at working space

You’re not lazy, really! It’s just that there are some days when you’re sick of staring your computer screen and are unable to churn anything out. We show you how to look like you’re hard at work when your mind is taking vacation.

Declutter, declutter
This is a far better option than staring at a blank document onscreen, and actually quite a productive activity to do while being unproductive. Not only will you get rid of the living ecosystem that has come into existence under that pile sitting on your desk for the past six months, it will also give your boss the impression that you’re an organized person when she walks by and sees you hard at work, clearing your desk

Reverse prioritizing
There’s always something to do at the office, from processing important files down to menial tasks like making coffee. While you’d usually start with the most important and brain-draining tasks at hand, sometimes the perfect thing to do if you just want to switch off and space out for a little while – without looking like you’re slacking off - is to file your claims and make your own coffee instead of getting that poor intern to do it.

Surf Smart
If the office snitch is around, make sure your screen isn’t parked on a site like Facebook. However, if you really can’t resist – and we understand that it can be hard – make sure it’s minimized on your screen. For good measure, always be sure to have work – related browser windows open, so you can switch between them quickly by pressing the Alt and Tab keys at the same time. You definitely don’t want a tap on your shoulder or have pointed glances thrown your way from your boss. Always be aware of your surroundings!

Come into the office earlier than your boss, or stay back later than he or she does
Putting in extra time at the office is a surefire way of making everyone think you’re hardworking and productive. In fact, you might just really be more productive when there are less people around. But avoid falling into the martyr-trap by whining to your colleagues about having to work so hard – you don’t want to piss people off.

P.s:\\ Quoted this article from Cleo magazine, felt it is quite useful to our working life. hehe. Sometime we must learn to be fake!

Zodiac Sex

Read this from a link, feel it might be suitable to share it with one of my best friend.
Hehe.. yaya, it's you!

Great sex is an integral part of any good relationship. But it's not always easy to keep things hot - especially in long-term affairs. Indeed, fanning the flames requires effort, openness and imagination. And what better way to do it then to incorporate a little child's play? Well, adult play, really.

On that note, whether you're in the first throes of passion or you've been together for years, if you're looking to liven up your boudoir (or open a few new doors with your partner), a little game play might be the answer. Lucky for you, the stars can help you determine how to create a win-win situation between the sheets!

Here is your guide to sex games - by sign!

Taurus is the food lover of the zodiac - as well as one of its most sensual lovers. So it follows that to add some play to your sex life, you'd be well-served with a bull to combine their two loves into a lover's food game. Edible additions are always welcome in the bedroom with Taurus - or anywhere else that you deign to do it. Choose the spreadable, smearable sort, put it on yourself and let Taurus blaze the treasure trail. Chart their territory wisely and they won't be the only one in for a different kind of dessert!

For Gemini, mind games are the primary tool of seduction. The focus here is on foreplay. One surefire way to set their libido a light is to indulge in role play - in fact, turning fantasy into reality (teacher/student or doctor/nurse) will be a guaranteed twin-pleaser. For added excitement try meeting in a bar and pretending to be strangers… before giving it a go in the bathroom… then leaving as if you're not going home together.

Cancer is sensitive - and sensual by nature. They're also submissive. Tie your crab up and spend hours lavishing them with attention (feathers, ticklers, oils - you name it), and you'll have cracked their shell for good. Make it your point to break their orgasm record… Then don't untie them until you're both repeatedly satisfied.

Leo is known for loving the spotlight - in bed and beyond. As such, Lions tend toward victim fantasies - victim of the voyeur that is! In other words, put the lion in the spotlight (doing anything and everything you choose) and you'll likely score points. Tell your Leo you want to watch them act out your fantasy - that they're on stage for only you (or the world) to see… their voracity may surprise you. Conversely, you could also try a little switch. Ask your Leo to watch you… they may find the role change refreshing.

Virgo may come off as serious, but keep in mind that their penchant is for neatness, not chasteness! Indeed, a little kink goes a long way with the Virgin. So don your leather gloves or any fetish gear that seems apropos (leather, latex and the like go over well here) to show them a taste of heaven… along with a little discipline… After all, no one is perfect, and they might need to be punished!

Libra is known to be fickle, and as such you want to keep them excited. The balanced ones will enjoy any sexual adventure that centers around location. Join the mile-high club, feel each other up in a taxi. Whatever, wherever can be your new creed - as long as it's festive and fun. To make a game of it, create a point system for initiating sex based on the risk factor of your location. Then set a time frame and see who wins.

Scorpio is the zodiac's siren. As such, even the most seemingly sensible stinger is open to sexual exploration - blindfolds or sex toys, anyone? So long as they're assured that you're under their spell. If you really want to blow a Scorpion's mind, make a list of questions about your desires and give them a personal erotic mystery to unravel. As they answer each question (correctly of course), remove an item of clothing… to reveal either an elaborate ensemble or intense arousal.

Sagittarius is a take-charge type, but adventure is always the name the game, which means switching things up on occasion. So, to set your Sag's blood to boil, remove them from the driver's seat for a second. Sit them down, restrain them if necessary and tease them, with a strip-tease, perhaps. The game, of course, will be seeing how long they can hold themselves back before they re-claim control and ravage you. Play your game outdoors for an added bonus!

Hardworking Capricorn is known for focus… Why not take that focus and hardwork to the bedroom? Try watching a little erotica to get warmed up, then delve into making your own! Just remember, the goat will most likely want to play the director… and make you the star. But once you have their attention, there's no limit to the heights they can scale.

Eccentric Aquarius requires a complex game to stay interested - sexually speaking. Feeling free whilst simultaneously entwined will do a lot for the Water Bearer. As such, if swinging is too far out for you (it probably won't be for Aquarius), pick a park to give some passers by a peep show. But of course, you'll have to pretend you don't want them to notice. Shy types fear not, it needn't be sex - a make out will do. For added points, keep track of the places you've displayed public affection… maybe even make a map!

Pisces is accustomed to being a pushover. But if you put Pisces in the power position, you'll uncover a whole new side to the fish - one that will make you submit to their whims! Ask to be dominated - to whatever level you're comfortable (bondage and spanking optional) and watch Pisces rise to the occasion. If it's near water, all the better!

Aries is not adverse to anything athletic that allows them to dominate. In fact, to please the Ram you'll want to make them work. A game of chase around the house… or hotel… or outdoor area of your choosing (with seductive stops intermittently, or a flash to give them a taste of what they're chasing) will do wonders. Just be sure to wriggle away and keep running, until neither of you can continue the chase!

So, how is it? i also not sure will this help, anyway just read it as fun!

Lotus

After view my blog, fount out that my blog is a little bit too plain and full of words.

So, to make my blog looks more visualize, share with you this lotus.

I took this picture with my hp. I think this lotus looks so beautiful in pure white with a little bit of yellow in the middle. Looks so elegant. Anyway, my mom planted this. nice huh?




This is another type of lotus. It's small but i like the purple color! hehe

No big deal! Stay happy!

Opps.. surprisingly today I am having a good patient.
Lately, I was in a very low mood and felt so hard to continue working in current condition.

Fortunately, I gave myself a break yesterday. I went back home early before 6pm (I normally went back at 8pm).
I was actually having a long ride yesterday because of the traffic condition.
When I sat in the car, I started to think about my future, my experiences and my feeling on all those things that happened lately.
It was so painful to me and it was like, why all these things happened to me.
Disappointment filled me up!

But when I was passing through the fly over, there’s something flown into my mind.
Some voices that it sounds so familiar to me.
Yup, I remembered someone told me something!
I had experienced so many bad things here in this company.

Case 1: Scolded by a manager from other department.
Why this idiot scolded me? It was so innocent where one of boss here instructed me to move his laptop to other table and when the manager can’t find his laptop on that table; I was the one who get burned! Do you know the reaction of the boss? He sat there as it was nothing happen and did not help me out when I was scolded by that idiot.

Case 2: Threaten by a senior manager from other department TOO!!
This case goes this way. I was handling a project somewhere 1 year back. It was an office relocation project where many departments involved.
As you know, after we made our plan, get vendor, sourced quotation, we need to have an approval from several departments.
This document should be prepared by department A, checked by my department and approved by department B and of course to the top management.
So before we gone through all these process, this project has to be approved by the directors in the director’s meeting.
In the meeting, my division head explained the urgency of the project (due to close budget) and need their help to sign it fast.
So this “senior manager” said, well.. if you able to complete all this project, then I sign! Immediately, my division head called me from the meeting room and requested me to proceed and anyhow complete it by today. Because of this urgent request, I walked from this department to that department, getting quotation from the procurement (not to mention I have been scolded until cry by the procurement officer) and brought the quotation to the maintenance department to prepare the documentation. After that get approval from their division head, hand carried back to my department, did all the documentation from my side, approved by my boss, then rushed to Finance department get the finance big boss to sign it. My last step was to get the “senior” manager signature. At that moment it was 530pm and I don’t care what he was doing at the moment and I knocked and walked into the conference room and asked him to sign it. You know what he did? He said, sorry I am not going to sign it! I asked him why? He said because I don’t want to. I was so surprised he spoke like this. I explained to him on how urgency is this and I have to get it done by today. He said no, I wont sign it today.

Well, I walked back to my office and told my boss. The next morning, when my division head (the Japanese) complained to the higher management about this issue, the “senior manager” claimed that I brought back the document and that’s the reason he did not sign on it. How crap is him??!! He blamed me now. Anyway, I explained to my boss and my boss settled it, so I thought that’s it. Guess what happened next? The next time when I went to his office, he was talking to somebody (a boss from procurement). Guess what he said when he saw me? He said: “This girl ah, don’t be surprise if her car 4 tyres flatten by someone”. What do you think? This crap spoke like “samseng”. He is a senior manager, and I am just nothing, why should he spoke that way? Unbelievable huh? Anyway, this is what I experienced here!

Fine, there are still many cases out there, anyway I am so lazy to mention here now. (just came back from rework, quite tired!)
Anyway, what I wanna say here is, I had gone through so many things and sometimes when I really turn back to see, whatever happened now is just a small case!
Don’t have to be so upset. I should face it normally, don’t let it influence my life and my emotion.
Always stay happy and appreciate whatever I have right now!

My New Boss

May I know the gender of your direct superior? Do you prefer your boss to be a man or women? What is your personal thinking about this? Any comment?

Since I graduated from university, I joined this company. It’s about three years’ time.
All the while I was supervised by male boss. Yes, although my boss has been changed for few times, but still man.
Lately, I had another organization change and again I have a new department head. This time, she is a lady!
Well, I don’t pretty much choosy in this, whatever he/she is, the most important is he/she is a good leader and understanding.
That’s pretty enough!

I remembered once, when I had a supper session with a group of friends and one of the guy said “I don’t like female boss”, because they are emotional!
At the moment, I was like “Ish..you are such a macho man that look down to the female”. (I didn’t speak it out, just have this feeling) Anyway, I don’t think that all female = emotional!
There’s still someone with high EQ out there, although I admit that I am the emotional one! :p

Ok, back to the new boss.
So, after she became our department head (previously was leader of the group), she started to implement her revolution plan.
She started to instruct us to do this and that.
You will often hear something like “I think this is better”, “I think you should do that”, “Please do this and that”.
I did not say that giving instruction is a problem. Yes, you are the leader, assigning job is right but you have to take care of the feeling of your staff.
Is not that you are the boss and you can ask us do whatever you want. You are just ruining your team.
Anyway, this is very general, perhaps all boss did this.. even the male!

Tell you something happen to me.
As per my previous post, you should know that I am currently training someone who is very slow and with bad attitude.
Of course, training her isn’t my wish or my boss’s wish. But when I complained to you about this matter, you said “please call a meeting and we shall highlight this to the top management”.
With hope, I called a meeting with the wish that I able to terminate this training. In the meeting, when I voiced out to the top management, you sat there quietly!
You did not support me. Why? You are the one who asked me to call a meeting and yet you kept quiet in the meeting.
Fine, I thought you have your thinking! But finally I get to know that the reason you did this is because you are just promoted to department head and you don’t want this matter to have any affection to your position.
I felt so disappointed with that! Really disappointed!

The story is not end when you promised my trainee that you will give her another 1 month probation period. Ok. Another instruction for me, I accepted it. I thought that’s just a month. I started to re-train her again.
But you know what happened later? She wrote a very long email to the top management complained on my trainee about ability, attitude and proficiency in language. I cannot believe that when she told me about this. I asked her why you are doing that as you already promised her for the one month. She said she is having high blood pressure and this matter is quite a headache for her. She wants a stop for this!
My feeling is like OMG! You are doing a judgment because you had high blood pressure because of this problem? I felt so surprise of the reason she gave me. But, I think this is solely caused by emotional!

Besides, I also don’t think she knows how to assign job. Every week, we will have a meeting where we share our experience on what we had done and she will assign when your turn is.
So, there’s once (few weeks back) she said next is my turn. So, I said no, I am busy lately. So she said ok, then she will present.
Following week, she said “next week your turn”. I was like ok, no choice, I already rejected once right. So I said ok. (With unhappy voice)
Infact, I am much busier compared to the previous week. Reason are I have few jobs on hand which have deadlines to commit. Moreover, I need to go business trip for vendor discussion.
She knew all of it, because she has all my cc copy of email and we will go for business trip together.
Yet, she wants me to present. Is not that I want to escape from presentation, but the matter here is I am damn so busy and yet you want to add my work load.
Is not like I can present without presentation material, I need time to prepare the material too.
Things gone bad when I suffered food poisoning on Thursday, I was on MC for Thursday and Friday of the week. Next Monday I have to go business trip in outstation and Tuesday morning is the presentation.
On that moment, I felt so bad about this, I do not have time to do my job (there’s deadline to commit), and I still haven’t do the presentation slide.
I was too weak to go back to office on Saturday because I was still vomiting after food and finally I forced myself to back to office on Sunday for the presentation material.
During our flight to vendor, I told her I went back to office on Sunday for the presentation material and I haven’t finish prepare it. Her reaction was “oic”.

I was so pissed off at that moment, you knew that I had food poisoning and I had business trip, then next morning is the day. You should ask me whether I can make it or not, whether I need schedule delay. But no, your reaction is “oic”. What a pathetic!!
The next day, I tried so hard to complete it in time and presented it in time. But I was so frustrated, of course also because of the salary issue added on.
I admit that I shown face to her. But I am so pissed off when she asked me when I can submit draft to vendor. My anger shoot up and I said “not free”!
Come on, I was on MC for last Thursday and Friday, OT on Sunday just for the presentation slide and business trip on Monday and presentation on Tuesday morning. Just right after the meeting, you asked me about the draft, what the heck! You think I am superwoman who can present and on the same time doing other job somewhere else? Silly you!

Because of all these added on, I am so unhappy with her, especially I was not promoted and have such a low increment. I gave her a double black face. I did not talk to her and ignore her (she is sitting in front of me). Really no mood or desire to talk to her, not even want to have lunch together with her.
Well, what will you do if you are boss? You knew that your staff is not happy or disappointed for the promotion and increment issue, what will you do?
Should you take care of your staff’s feeling or you just ignore it or what will you probably do?
Guess what she did? Haha.. She shows me triple back face (I show her double). Why I said so? Because she also shown her face to us! She was not doing anything! At least you come to understand our feeling! I know, I know you cannot do anything for this problem, but at least you show you’re care of our feeling. But no!!! She has shown her face to us. She don’t speak to us (me and my neighbour – who are very unhappy about this promotion and increment). Really felt so disappointed for this. Well, no one care to break the ice.

Yesterday, after few days thinking, I finally decided to break the ice with her, thinking to find way to resolve this. But what she did was like, you do 1, I do 15 (你做初一，我做十五). In the meeting room, she told me she has something to discuss with me regarding my job. Issh, if you have anything you wanted to talk to me, why should you announce it in front of all. You can always talk to me; I am just sitting in front of you! How silly is it?

Anyway, all these only proven one thing, there’s no more reason for me to stay and work for her! There's no future her!

Unexpected pay rate!

Are you satisfy with your current pay??? Is your pay over or under your expectation?? Have you ever think of this matter?

Few days back, i get my pay slip. April is a month that everyone waiting for, because this is a month for bonus , and also our promotion or increment month. If you are not promoted in this April, then sorry please wait for next April... This is the rule.

So, after working for 3 years in this bloody company, i was not promoted this time. That's mean, i have to wait for another year to be promoted...ermm..provided i will be promoted next year!

Yes..i expected promotion. Did i tell you that my former boss want to convert me into Engineer position?? Yes, he did said that. But now i have new boss, so i expected my engineer position is impossible for me. Because of this, i thought that they will promote me to senior officer..But NO!!! They did not.

I do not know why! I am working in this company for 3 years... 3 years and i am still an officer. If i am someone who are not perform or has bad performance, fine!!! But no.. you knew that i can work and you assigned me to take up a new department..but yet i was not promoted! I cannot accept this...I cannot!

Feeeling so disappointed with this company.. What for you work so much and pay so much of effort to this company and yet they do not appreciate your hardwork. Well, if you really cannot convert to engineer, then promote me. If you really cannot promote me, then please give me more increment. But shit..don't mention about the bloody increment! It's sucks!!!!! Damn sucks!!
I feel so curious about the management of this company, don't they know that promoting their staff or giving higher increment or incentives is a best way to retain talent of the company??? No..i think they don't know, if they know they will not give such a low increment. Perhaps they want to save the money for retrenchment.. By doing so, they can make us resign by ourselves. Great, then resign!!!

Finally i decided...

Congratulate to me..
It's not that i win any award or i want to get married...
But i decided to get myself a new job.

I am not sure when i will make my 1st move, but....anyway.. i had decided!

Recently, i'm so demotivated to work. I am so disappointed with the system of this company.
I was thinking, can i see my future here for continuing service in this company?
Yes, maybe i can become an assistant manager or manager somehow one day later, but what else can i be? Can i make it a difference?

Last week, i attended a meeting. After i stepped out from the meeting room, i know this isn't the place i want to be. Yes, everywhere is the same. But at least the pay make it different! I am getting a low pay but working in a heavy load, i am tired! What i am asking is not to add my burden by requesting me to do something that will finally waste my time and energy. But what i could see is i'm fighting on my own and finally be a silly joker.

I am fed up! Enough, what for am i earning so less and working for this! As well i am going to a higher pay place and get more money...

Anyway, i had decided and my family support me. This time, i hope i can make my move as soon as possible.

Good luck to you, joy!

My wish dashed

I did not remember if i did blog about my boss promise to convert me to an engineer position.
Forget it.. let me start again with the story.

There's once (can't remember the actual month, but about few months back) my "boss" told me that he had an intention to convert my position from officer to engineer. The reason was i am working on more technical related job like mechanical job and electrical job such as reading and checking schematic as well as pcb board.

The first reaction i heard about that was a shocked followed with a doubt. I asked him if he really able to do that since i was a business background person, he said no problem as he did it for his previous staff before. Anyway he had a requirement, whereby i need to pick up my technical know how as soon as i can, else it's hard for him to convert me. Fair enough, i agreed.

So, with all the strong desire to be an engineer and passion on my new hope... i am so enthusiast to learn as much as i can. Whenever i came across with all the unknown question, i will make sure i digged out the answer and i can understand it well. From how to see mechanical part, check mechanical part until how to operate mechanical 3D software, from how to read the schematic, PWB layout, understanding the IC, learn the function of the part, until able to check whether they did it correct or wrong... i learned it on my own. From know nothing until something... I doesn't mean that i am good in this, but at least from zero i gained something. Maybe it is all done in short time but i really pay a lot of effor on it and i admit that i expect some return.. i want to be an engineer.

Anyway, my dream start to crack when i knew that my 'boss' who promised to convert me into engineer no longer be my department head. Now, there's a new department head for my group. She knows very less about my job and the most important is she is a business background person as well. I knew that there's a impossible case for her to convert me, because she never gone through my progress, do not know that i am dealing with so much of engineering stuff..

..... disappointment + upset + demotivated + dream blow off.

My current feeling

My feeling now is very much like this dog.

Anyway you can try interprete my feeling by looking at this dog.

It's now my wallpaper for my PC.

Super match my feeling now!!!

Dried out patient

It's really long time for my last update in this blog. Lately, i am so busy with my job and working for others as well as training someone who is very hard to be trained.

Anyway, almost all the job has been completed, what's left is just to train up my subordinate who might work with me continously. Why did i said "might", it's a uncertain term huh!? Actually she is someone who was given up by other group and thrown to me. Frankly speaking i do not want her to be with me, because i know she will drag my progress and make me into trouble. But because of some "top dog" insistent, i do not even have a chance to say No.

Training someone to do certain job isn't easy, moreover she is a bad performer. Even if we do not mention her as a bad performer, she is someone who are unreliable, non-initiative, bad understanding, forgetful and low self esteem. To be frank, i really faced huge difficulties and challengeable to train someone like her, really fed up and not motivated to train her anymore!!!

Speaking the truth, yes from the initial i do not want her to join me, because of impression on her, everyone who deal with her has bad impression about her. I received a lot of bad comment from others. No one even mention about her good point. Anyhow, no matter how much my dislike, i do not have an option but to start train her and assign job to her!

I used 1 week to train her on basic understanding of the job, explained to her on job scope as well as responsibility until officially assigned her to be a PIC of a model. At that moment, she supposed to work hard in order to complete her job within given dead line. But she used most of the time doing nothing until last minute told me she couldn't submit draft out to vendor. See, that's unreliable and irresponsible! Fine, anyhow i already expected that.

Worst come to worst when my boss triggered her in the meeting, asked her to explain why she did that last minute job! Then she said she don't understand her job well and thought that we were just given her training instead of assigned her a job. See...she starts to push away her responsibility and pretending to be innocent! Well, i kept quiet. My boss asked her again, whether she don't know how to do was purely because she don't understand or she did not received training, then she said yes, she did not received training. Again..she blame other (me). Anyway, boss knew that she lied because everyone knew that i trained her!

Well, i still have my overflown patient. I talked to her personally after the meeting and asked her to appreciate the one last chance. I promise to re-train her and requested her cooperation to voice out if she had anything which she don't understand. So i re-trained her even though i was in peak season of rushing my job. To make her understand the 1st page and our job responsiblity, i used up half day... My patient was cut to half at that moment. Finally she told me she knows everything of the 1st page. Following day when i gave her a review as an excercise, she failed to do it. She used about 90 mins to complete the 1st page (super simple job - estimated 10 mins to complete by me). Fine, let's just don't forget about the duration of completion, but the quality is suck! She get almost everything wrong! Again, i explained to her again and she claimed that she fully understand now! Again, i gave her another 4 review, and she only get 1 correct! (See.. still in the 1st page)...

My patient dried out. I asked her if she really like the job and she said yes she is initiative. God Damn initiative... If you are initiative you won't act like want me to spoonfeed you! I am not going to do that!! Come on, i really do not know how to put my 2nd step out. I do not know how should i train her! Just for the 1st page took me a week and some more she is still doing some error which she think that's just a god damn "careless mistake". Careless mistake kills!!! We are not allowed to have careless mistake, moreover you are given so many chance to make it right! Pissed off!!!!

Anyway, i tried to highligt this issue to the top and requesting for the instruction to stop training her. But the "top dog" asked me to give her one last chance! Duration of "last chance" are 2 months. I am so so disappointed to the management. Come on...this person is not only couldn't help me but dragging my progress. She is my burden! I have to work on both of our job and i still have to spend time on training her. Training her is damn so hard for me...not to mention that i always get backstabbed by her that i did not given her a proper training and i am so damn high expectation. I tell you, i already have a super low expectation on her where i let her to complete the shit 1st page for more than 1 hour without scolding her..i just wish that she could tell me when she don't understand or having any trouble but not sitting there doing nothing until i approached her.

Story about her can make me talk whole day. Better stop now. Really fed up and now really scatching my head on how to proceed for 2nd step. Today i expected more backstab things to me..because today the 'top dog' is going to talk to her. Good Luck Joy...

Golden Opportunity

Reading a lots of fortune reader that this year, my luck is going to be moderate..
Well, i think i am still consider lucky. keke... Of coz, i hope i always lucky!

Yesterday, i get a golden opportunity. I have been nominated by my sector head to participate in this year President's Award. My Goodness. Having this opportunity isn't easy, because you can only be contestant if you get nomination from the sector head or directors.

Actually, i am holding a project now, as i had setup a new department in my division and it has been a succees story after i have completed my 1st model. Yippy!~~
But to win this contest, isn't that easy also, since there are a lot of outstanding projects here. Anyway, i am glad i have the chance to join in and compete, at least i still stand some chances to win right?

Err.. the prize is so attractive! Cash money.. :P Consolation got RM1000 and 2nd runner up is RM3000, 1st Runner up RM6000 and MD award is RM10K. So amazing huh! Yeah!!! Ganbatte Kudasai!


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Info updated

* 20.02.08 Outline submitted to div head
* 22.02.08 Outline been selected to represent sector to join MD award.
hehe..promoted from president award to MD award.
Have to submit presentation material before next monday. *rolled eyes*

Happy Valentine Day

Happy valentine day to all lovers and to those single... wish you could find a realible partner soon.

This year, without much different, i have to pass the day myself.. ermm..nope! many people will accompany me, because i have to work..and of course after work, still a lot of things to be done because tonight we will have to pray, and thanks god..tomorrow i on leave! yeah!!!~~

Today wake up with a very delightful mood. Thinking of what to wear.. hehe even though you are not with me, i hope you could be. So, i think of wearing the cloth you bought for me, but after that i put back and wear another. Thinking of how to make me feel you with me.. hehe.. i put on the channel chance that you bought for me. So so nice taste! kekeke... Feeling so romantic with the taste and of course.. feeling you surrounding me..

Happy valentine!

New Year Wishes

Happy Chinese New Year and Gong Xi Fa Cai.
Wishing everybody have a great new year and all your dreams and wishes may come true.

Have you made your wish for year 2008?
Actually i have some thinking...or to be accurate.. i have some wishes or goal to be achieved.
It has been some time that i never even plan for my future, because i always think that even though you have a well-planned planning, things are just so unpredictable.

But this year, i gonna make it a little bit different, because i plan something! Well, anyway it shouldn't be too difficult to achieve it. hehe..Reasonable one!
Well, i have categorized it into 2 category, phsycially and mentally! yeah!

For physically, i wish i could be more beautiful. Lately, i found out that i did not really dress up myself, all clothes i bought is jeans and t-shirt. I seldom wear dresses and i don't even comb my hair properly. I become so "auntie"... Last time, at least i know when i go out with friends, i should wear dress or wear nicely with high heel shoes and handbag. Now with a normal sandals and big shopping bag or sling back with shorts and t-shirts, i can go everywhere! Actually, i guess i have adapted to my life where no guys is going to date me and i don't have to dating with other guys anymore! Serious right? OK. I think this is very serious..So, i gonna change my outer apperance. I don't want to be so "auntie" anymore, i have to dress up myself, make myself look amazing, look pretty and of course confident and most importantly keep slim. haha... that's my major goal this year.

Anyway, realized that i am always sticky to my bf like he is my world really makes me sick! So, i gonna make more friends and have more own activity instead of waiting him to bring me shopping, climbing or anything! So how? I think about it and i have decided to join some after work activity like dancing class or yoga.. Hope from joining this, can keep me slim and make some friends. Of course, i understand that lately those dancing class and yoga class is full of "auntie".. haii~~~ Btw, to make more friends, it is not easy actually! Mostly, people can get friend through working environment..so, i also wanna try to make more friends here! :P

Well.. besides that, what else? hmm... oh ya! i wanna take a series of photo. See.. i have stepped into 25 now and i have yet to have an album of mine. I wanna have that! OK. Have to search for quotation and good skill photo studio. Not to worry, if i happen to have that, i will show it to you ya!

Ok...oh ya, travelling! Last year, it's been my 1st time to visit Japan or i should say...foreign country! Yup.. 1st time, you are right! So..this year, i also want to go travel. No matter it is a business trip or personal trip, i wish i have a chance! Me and my bf have talked about visiting S'pore in coming June or July, but...life is unpredictable, right? so, just waiting forward! Else, would you like to go with me? keke...

Mentally, i seriously think that i should be more mature.. of coz not mature like "auntie".. Mature and think wisely and do everything without have to regret lo! O.O... keke. Of coz emotional also playing a big role here. My major problem is i am very hot tempered person, i easily get angry or sad.. I mean i have a problem that mood swing easily! So..this is what i should improve as well. EQ up up ! Cup also up up! @v@ haha...

So, that's mine and how's yours?
Share with me ya! Happy New Year

Boring Day!

Today is the 1st day of the CNY 2008. In chinese we called it "立春".
Someone said, it is a very important day, it foreseen your luck of the year.

I gonna say today is a moderate day for me, nothing good happen, and nothing bad happen too! So, still consider good right? ermm..anyway, still cannot say, because now is just about 3pm.
Anyway, early in this morning, i wake up with a happy mood expecting my bf coming back from somewhere.

Came in to work and found out i forgot to bring my locker's key. I think, NVM! hehe.. Since today is the 1st day of CNy, i gonna wear my new working shoe, but it seems like a little bit tight for me, and it makes me pain when i walked for long. Anyway, it seems alright, when i sit down without walking!

Since i have completed all my silly jobs last week, i am so so so free today! I am so free until i don't know what should i do. Person around me are so busy to complete their job before CNY. Very huge contrast, because i sat here surfing nets from morning until now.

Luckily the time still moving, and it's already 3pm.. Yeah!!! btw, i am so boring now! serious!
hehe....

Opps.. i forgot to mention! My New workstation is here!!! yeaH!! Finally i have my new dekstop which is quite great in spec!!! hehe..

Review on single life

One weeks ago, i posted a blog said that i wanted to enjoy this few days of my single life as my "best friend" is in outstation for biz trip! hehe.. well, today he is coming back from china.. and let just review what have i done on these days!

Actually i did not do all the things i have plan to.

Anyway, most achievable is i completed my job earlier and won some good praise and appreciation from the managements.

Attended a group's dinner and have a nice dinner gathering with them..

Finished all my downloaded movie clips in one weeks time and started a novel, probably few pages!

Then i washed and vacuumed my car. I wanted to polish it, but have no more time for that!!

I did some exercise, ermm.. just very short time. But i diarrhea for 2 days, i believed it weight off a little bit! Hope it did! :)

and.. i brought my mum to shopping.

I also went for facial treatment, and self- hair treatments for twice! Now my hair become softer, but in overall, they don't look nicer! so sad!

Finished a new game... turbo sub! keke.. in 3 days! (nope jz 3 nite) for 60 levels.
whahaha..!!

That's all.... following 7 days, i gonna appreciate my "in relationship" days.. because after these 7 days, i gonna have my single life again.. because he is going to biz trip @gain!!.

Black and white

Nowadays i really facing a problem.. whereby i fall into a same point .. "black and white".
Do you practice to keep all the "black and white" so that it keeps as an evidence to prove that you have done something? Well..previously i omit the importance of this, but now i trust that it is damn hell important!

Last month i get a complaint from someone that i did not do this and that and then i do that and this... and i cannot fight back that i already did this and that.. because i do not have black and white!

Then today i get another claim that they cannot do this and that for me because i did not request it earlier, while the truth is i did!!!i did asked them to do it so long aso but unfortunately i lost the fought because i don't have this black and white! and then i gonna say ok no choice because god damn it that i am wrong! very very pissed off!

You see, why am i falled into the same point for two times, and i learned nothing? why don't i always keep the shit black and white or create this idiot black and white and send to all management or cc to all big bosses? Why can't people just base on their sincerity and trust to work on something? Why people wanna bully you as they think you are kind hearted enough and think you are very good to be bullied? All are bullshit! fed up with all of this!

See, i just put this cute border collie wallpaper on my dekstop and wan this cutie to remind me so that i always bearn in mind that "black and white" is very important! see.. the dog is so black and white! pretty dog huh?!

Bitch comes into my dream!

Have you ever dislike somebody until you can even dream of him/her bad at night and wanna slap him/her in the dream?? I DO!

I am so dislike of a gal who used to play some dirty office politic trick and frequently backstabbed me!! yes, i admit that in this realitistic world, everywhere is full of this kind of person! but God DamnIt..this person is doing all this dirty trick to me! I hate her! Frankly speaking she is the only one i hate in this office..

You know person who knows how to play this kind of trick is truly a smart one.. but i really felt disappointed or i should say i look down her! I hate person who have no ability and yet using all those silly trick just to put herself up and win some recognition! Don't have to mention and you know she is polishing the bosses' shoes! Shit! silly chick!

The most funniest thing is i dislike this girl until i dreamt of her last nite! haha.. she was in my dream and some sort of threatening me and asked me to do her some favor. If i don't want to do her that.. she's gonna do something to make me lost my chance. Know what?! I almost got the chance to slap her... but i wake up! kakaka... see!! Guess today when i see her face in the office, i gonna laugh secretly...you dirty bitch!

Gonna make it different!

Life is gonna change a little bit from yesterday onwards.. until... ermm.. i hv 12 days time.
why? hehe.. becoz my "best friend" went oversea for biz trip..
So, rather than always feeling missing and loneliness.. i wanna make those days the very special and enjoy! yup.. it has to be enjoyable! at least i don't waste up these days. :D

I have some planning.. i wanna spend my time watching movie, reading my unfinished novel and book, facial treatment, hair treatment, keep fitting.. and of coz completing my stupid and silly job! Oh ya.. of coz i still need to work.. so i gonna fully utilize my spare time to do something fun! Instead of laying lazily and moody there for nothing.. and ends up when he came back.. i done nothing. So stupid huh!?

Yesterday, i been through a very very busy day. I spend whole morning sending and replying my best gal friend email.. we were talking about a new started relationship of her.. Congratulation to her and wish her happiness. Then spending my whole afternoon trouble shooting and doing some draft job. For god sake, i work until 9 something at nite.. my god! i am so tired and did not able to complete it! I reached home before 10pm. Fortunately, i still hv time to entertain myself by watching a unfinished show.. quite funny! I went to bed at 1130 pm and wake up at 4am.. jz becoz i am too tension of my unfinished job! My god..

Today.. i spend whole morning doing nothing but the draft.. adding some interruption from some vendor and make my job more and more... Gosh!!!! hehe..but i still able to complete it before 4pm. really tired! Luckily tomorrow i don't hv to work..must hv good rest then! hehe...

Pretender or High EQ?

Do you feel of laughing or smiling even though you are not really happy?
Lately, one of my colleague keep asking me to smile.. and i was wondering..why? Why is he always asked me to smile... Today i was like come on! i always smile! What's going on to yoU! and he told me that... i know you are not happy, although there's a smile on your face.

I keep thinking about his words.. but it doesn't annoyed me much! Today when i was at the petrol station, someone reversed his car and knocked on mine! A minor crash and my heart was like... OMG~!!! very nervous and worry..but gosh...the silly smile is still hanging on my face..and i told my friend..Is ok..nvm..

All the way back..i was like lost my soul..but i am still smiling! Crazy and funny... What is going on to me? Am i turn to be a pretender or i have an upgraded EQ?! Cannot believe that...

Afterall, i start to think back what my colleague told me! "I know you are not happy, although you are smiling!" What a pity! I am so fake!

I don't know my feeling now, actually i just don't know! sometime i just feel i am so tired..especially when someone still trying to challenge my emotion by arguing about some issue like crying baby...Really fed up sometime.. Anyway, i successfully protect my emotion by avoiding the condition to turn bad! boring! Arghh....

Desperate of keeping a dog!

People who know me well knows that i am very much a dog lover. Yeah! i love dog very very much. Last time i used to have few dogs at my house but now no more now! OK, actually last time i have quite a numbers of dog and although i love playing around with them, i guess i not really taken up the responsibility of taking care of it! What do i mean? Well, except of playing around with them.. i do nothing! All are done by my mom.. She do the cleaning, food feeding, bathing.. everything!

So, i gave myself very good excuse that the reason i wasn't really into it is because they are not a good breed but mix! hehe.. so, i keep on dreaming to have a good breed dog one day.. Unfortunately, getting myself a dog isn't easy. u know why? a pure breed's dog is so so expensive. (of course depends on the breed)...

But you know, i want to have a big size and fury fury dog. With this requirement, i have less choice if thinking about the weather of Malaysia and my ability! Golden retriever and labrador retriever of course is the best option, but it is very much too friendly and hyperactive. I wish i can have a guard dog! So, perhaps guard dog category dog is more preferrable for me! Rockweiler, german shepherd or doberman is all very good dog!.. but i have my fantasy on german shepherd. hehe...

I think i can have it and imaging the fury fury big dog sleeping on floor while i sleep on bed. hehe.. great huh!? i can have someone to talk to when i have insomia.. keke.. so multi purpose dog ya! When i out for work, he can be at home take good care of my mum and dad... maybe i can train the dog to do some simple task.. and sooner or later i have a good life helper! kekeke

okok..stop dreaming now.

Insecurity of Job

Working alone really isn't that fun or enjoy! Yup, someone might say working alone, you be able to make your own decision, no interruption and you earn all the recognition..etc..etc.. But working alone is very lonely, you have no people to discuss your problem and have no one to share you stress or burden.. You have to cope everything by yourself and grab all the responsibility with you.

Lately, i felt so much intention of leaving my current job! Whatever it is.. quit and search for some new job! Perhaps i don't have to be in this line anymore, searching for some other job which suits me more! Or..give myself a break and think wisely on my future undergoing! Sometime we do not know what we want and what's our target and unintentionally we pick a wrong path to go...

It's not that i am regretting for taking up this job..jz i felt sense of loniness for being a lone-ranger! People say i am pioneer..but i see myself nothing because i am actually doing everything and ends up i might not promise any pay back. I might get nothing this time.. i mean no promotion and nothing..

Really getting less and less motivated. Gosh! who's going to motivate me?! I am out of mood..tired of working now. Anybody have any good job to introduce me? please~

Insects attacked!

Time passed so soon and chinese new year is jz gonna at d corner! I remembered when i was young, CNY is my favourite and most waiting forward holiday. Why? Becoz i hv many "ang Pao" and long holiday... But when i getting elder and elder.... i start to lost my passion on this event.. of coz is not becoz of the reducing amount of "ang pao" but the happiness of those days..

Anyhow.. this year is gonna be a very different one from past 24 years.. becoz this year we will enjoy our "OWN" family gathering.. without some other "peace destroyers" or "pretender" to join us.. I hope it's gonna be a very wonderful, lovely and simple CNY.

One thing i really don't like about this season is that weather getting truly hot! Really fed up..! Now.. the weather already started to gettng hot! and when comes to the nite.. weather change drastically and a groups of small insects coming from nowhere!

I have been attackign by this small insects for days.. really pissed off! Not sure what happen, perhaps is becoz the light which attracted them.. but come on!! gv me a break! i need to sleep.. i has been awaked at 3am in the morning for days.. and running away from my room!

Gosh@.. can't believe that i was attacked by insects.. for no reason! i must hv done something bad..! No...please.. i'm really gonna be exhausted for lack of rest.. jz let me sleep tonight! please~

Happy New Year 2008

Happy New Year...
Wishes you alwz happy n stay healthy...

So how do you celebrate ur new year eve? Enjoyed?
I have a quite unforgetable new year eve celebration! Yup!.. the most terrific in my 25 yrs.
It is my 1st time i saw "古惑仔" or we called it gangsters in my real life!
Luckily no one was hurt! Thanks god!

On new year eve, together with some friends, we went to a pub nearby the Penang jetty.. it is a happening place and we thought it must be a great place for such a happening day! We paid and enjoyed there... but around 1 hours later, about 30 mins before the new year, a group of gangsters with helmet on their hand rushed into the pub and start to smash everything (exclude the people)...

We were caught in surprise and so scared... they thrown the tables and chairs into the sea and smashed the beers, liquors, glass, decoration, tables, counter..etc etc that they able to smash! The floor is full of broken glass... It is so so so terrify!

We ran away immediately without able to safeguard our paid beer or souvenirs. so unfortunately! Paid for RM240, we only drank half of the beers and left half to be broken by those gangsters!

Cool ya!? Btw...really feel ashamed with them!

Btw, it was no doubt a very memorable new year i have passed!