Lately, my working life is so stressful. Tonnes of work to be completed and so many new things to catch up.. Bearing all alone.. really make me felt so tired. Pissed off!
Trying so hard to make everything seems good is my daily routine. A lot of frustration. Getting no understanding is another most upset things. However... things like this easily passed, everything might back to normal soon enough, i guess!
Had some talk with someone i trust and get some advice is really nice. Especially when you're really imbalance and get no point of balancing. Someone help you to set some reason of continuing... i felt glad with the appearance of someone like this. Unfortunately, again, you spend no time for that!
I always ask myself.. how much is my passion on you? I not sure..again and again.. same question repeated..what am i going to do? i not sure! I'm jz frustrated... and desperate.
Friday, 23 November 2007
Friday, 16 November 2007
LIfe Partner - Part 2
Well...i nearly forgotten that i have promised to continue writting about Life partner on my own point of view. Yup.. I am not only busy with my new job.. i am sick too! Lately, i am easily sick. I have no idea why but to explain that i have move to a new office environment and sitting under an air con circulation diffuser. So, i suck in dirty air which makes me.... Sick! Too bad.. i have been MC for so many times after i moved here...
OK, let's don't talk about that. Talking about life partner, i felt so happy to read my friends comment that they have exactly same thinking as i do. Yup.. i don't actually need some one who must stick to for day and night..but at least he has to be good in balancing his life. What is job and what's private life! I don't like to be with you jz because i need luxury life from you. I need love.. need time, need patient..and cares of course!
So, when i was discussing this matter with my friends in the gathering.. i felt like i am some one who are really tradisional mind! Why say so??? They said that, they can even accept if the guys have no time for them, don't have to care... but to give them money. That's really annoying after i listened to that... But of course.. i always listen instead of commenting. So, i keep listening.
Until they start to talk about what's their dream wedding.. dream house, dream life and also... about future... They start to talked about money $$$. It's quite interesting actually. But they seems to say that if your man is not actually earning great money.. please dumb him! Let's make it simple.. For example.. when you plan to get marry, you will have to decorate your room. So.. how much to decorate the room? Friend A: Rm10K. At least RM10K.. because you need to buy $^@*&@... So Friend B said: What!! RM10K?? No.. At least RM25K... I was like.. "freak".. after listening to that.. but.. still keep silent.. But my mind start calculating.. "tik" "tik" "tak" "tak"... why need so much?? Aren't that jz a room?? So, they start to say... hey joyjoy.. your bf earn that much or not??? i was still in my calculation... "HUH"!! Jz break up with him..no use to continue be with him, if you don't see he able to do that...
Oppss.. i smile..and think.."Are you crazy???" haha.. of coz... i never say anything..but..feeling very much funny with their thinking... So, get really happy after listen to my best friends comment.. well.. i am not that weird!! keke
OK, let's don't talk about that. Talking about life partner, i felt so happy to read my friends comment that they have exactly same thinking as i do. Yup.. i don't actually need some one who must stick to for day and night..but at least he has to be good in balancing his life. What is job and what's private life! I don't like to be with you jz because i need luxury life from you. I need love.. need time, need patient..and cares of course!
So, when i was discussing this matter with my friends in the gathering.. i felt like i am some one who are really tradisional mind! Why say so??? They said that, they can even accept if the guys have no time for them, don't have to care... but to give them money. That's really annoying after i listened to that... But of course.. i always listen instead of commenting. So, i keep listening.
Until they start to talk about what's their dream wedding.. dream house, dream life and also... about future... They start to talked about money $$$. It's quite interesting actually. But they seems to say that if your man is not actually earning great money.. please dumb him! Let's make it simple.. For example.. when you plan to get marry, you will have to decorate your room. So.. how much to decorate the room? Friend A: Rm10K. At least RM10K.. because you need to buy $^@*&@... So Friend B said: What!! RM10K?? No.. At least RM25K... I was like.. "freak".. after listening to that.. but.. still keep silent.. But my mind start calculating.. "tik" "tik" "tak" "tak"... why need so much?? Aren't that jz a room?? So, they start to say... hey joyjoy.. your bf earn that much or not??? i was still in my calculation... "HUH"!! Jz break up with him..no use to continue be with him, if you don't see he able to do that...
Oppss.. i smile..and think.."Are you crazy???" haha.. of coz... i never say anything..but..feeling very much funny with their thinking... So, get really happy after listen to my best friends comment.. well.. i am not that weird!! keke
Friday, 2 November 2007
Friendship?
Do you trust there will be true friendship in working environment?
Do you believe that?
Yes i do. I sincerely be friend with some person and we getting closer and closer...
Slowly and slowly, we became someone that can share certain level of privacy.
We supporting each others..and helping each others..
From other person eyes, we are close friends... and i believe that...we are close friends..
I always think that when you treat someone good, people will treat you good. This is always my principle. I hope to get the same treatment from others. But since long time ago, i knew it was not correct. You give someone apple, does not mean they will return you an apple. They can give you orange, or others. Giving and receiving might not be tally. I knew it earlier. But for me, inner heart of me, i still remember this.
Since i was small, i have a very close friend, we went to same tuition, taken same bus to school, always be together.. joining same society..ends up...she ignore me for no reason. I feel sad and cry for a week. This happened when i was in form 1.
Still in secondary school, i have another close friend..getting closer and closer to me, because she sat besides me in the class for 3 years. We have done a lot together..ends up, she told me she hates me because she jealous of me. This happened when i was in form 5.
With hope, joined university and still think if you treat someone good, she treats you good in return. There, I met a girl.. we became closer and closer...but ends up she still always make me crying secretly at nite. But doesn't matter..
During that moment, i have another good friend, same class with me, we were so good and close..and ends up i been backstab for free. She is the one make me cried uncontrollable on the street...It happened when i doing industrial training in Penang..
Of coz...out of those close friends.. there's still one..my ex. He is the most disappointed part.
After i graduated... i joined this company. I became more aware. Aware of giving out true friendship and feeling. But i do...and i get hurt!
Last night, when everything refresh in my mind, i realized one thing. I easily cry. Cannot control my tears.. hehe.. but i know...my heart is squeezing painfully again and again....
Do you believe that?
Yes i do. I sincerely be friend with some person and we getting closer and closer...
Slowly and slowly, we became someone that can share certain level of privacy.
We supporting each others..and helping each others..
From other person eyes, we are close friends... and i believe that...we are close friends..
I always think that when you treat someone good, people will treat you good. This is always my principle. I hope to get the same treatment from others. But since long time ago, i knew it was not correct. You give someone apple, does not mean they will return you an apple. They can give you orange, or others. Giving and receiving might not be tally. I knew it earlier. But for me, inner heart of me, i still remember this.
Since i was small, i have a very close friend, we went to same tuition, taken same bus to school, always be together.. joining same society..ends up...she ignore me for no reason. I feel sad and cry for a week. This happened when i was in form 1.
Still in secondary school, i have another close friend..getting closer and closer to me, because she sat besides me in the class for 3 years. We have done a lot together..ends up, she told me she hates me because she jealous of me. This happened when i was in form 5.
With hope, joined university and still think if you treat someone good, she treats you good in return. There, I met a girl.. we became closer and closer...but ends up she still always make me crying secretly at nite. But doesn't matter..
During that moment, i have another good friend, same class with me, we were so good and close..and ends up i been backstab for free. She is the one make me cried uncontrollable on the street...It happened when i doing industrial training in Penang..
Of coz...out of those close friends.. there's still one..my ex. He is the most disappointed part.
After i graduated... i joined this company. I became more aware. Aware of giving out true friendship and feeling. But i do...and i get hurt!
Last night, when everything refresh in my mind, i realized one thing. I easily cry. Cannot control my tears.. hehe.. but i know...my heart is squeezing painfully again and again....
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)