My heart is souring..

My heart is souring..my father was admitted to hospital today. He had high fever on yesterday night and vomitted alot. As per my mum, the condition is so critical last night. My brother said he cried when he saw dad vomit.

79.. my father is 79 years old now. sometime, I'm wondering..did i made the right choice to leave home and work here. Yes, Singapore is not so far away from Penang.. just 1 hour flight time. But, it's not that i can fly back or be there at the moment they need me. i just couldn't be there. Y_Y

What can i do? everytime when i got to know that he is fever or he is not feeling well, i can just cry here and call back to check out how is his condition. Whether or not they tell me the truth, i don't know! I know that my mum, my brother don't want me to worry, they will just tell me not to worry and everything is under control. Of course, i hope everything is just fine, that's all i wish.

As usual, i called back just now and talked to my dad and he said:" ju, 爸爸没有事,爸爸好好,不用想爸爸..你好好去做工..没有事,不用担心!"... yes, i feel better when i hear his voice sounds okie but i feel so bad because when he is sick, i couldn't be there taking care of him.

i'm also quite worry of my mum too. everytime when dad is sick, she will be exhausted..just hope i could be there and helping her out.. Y_Y....
soon, i'll be back very soon. another 14 days.. hope i can fast forward to 1st jan.. and be there at home right away.

好想念我妈妈..

好想念我妈妈哦...
最近我男朋友的妈妈来在我们家已经一个星期了..
虽然知道如果我和能结婚的话,法律上我也要喊她一声妈了.
但是说实在的,感觉真的很奇怪;可能我想多了,总觉得她没有很喜欢我.
尤其是在饭桌上,那种感觉更是强烈.
或许是他们家的习惯吧...
我们家不同,如果能来我家吃饭,妈妈一定煮一桌子菜,然后拼命叫他吃,不要客气..而且如果我妈妈知道他要来吃饭一定会煮他喜欢吃的食物.
相反的,她每次都只煮他们喜欢吃的食物,然后一直叫自己孩子吃. 如果出去吃,女儿男朋友也一起去的话,她会一直叫他吃,但是我不记得她有如此重视过我.
好想念我妈妈哦..这几天在想,以前在家的时候,一回到家妈妈就会赶紧去热汤添饭,等着我们的永远是那慈祥的妈妈和一桌热腾腾的饭菜,吃饱盘碗放着妈妈还收去洗..现在饭汤要自己添,还要帮人家添;吃饱不只洗自己的盘碗,别人的也得洗!难道这就是媳妇的命运吗?

Bra Lesson

Being a girl for 27 years and wearing bra for more than 10 years, it is my first time to learn how to properly wear and choose a bra.
i just got to know that for the past 10 years, i'm not choosing the right bra and wearing it correctly! gosh! *blush* haha.. Anyway, it's still not late to learn it now..still going to wear bra for the rest of my life.. you know bra is always so mandatory for us - female. :D

So happy today, i bought 4 new bras..*what a big spender!!* ..@.@ and i love them so much. *cough cough*..got sales of coz..and it was so tempted. i bought 2 from wacoal, 2 lacey bra..so nice!! after paid, then i realized Triumph also having quite a good offer, so i went over to have a look. The sales gal is so so nice and patient to introduce bra that suits me. I took a few to try and wondering which one suits me better. For once in my life time, i asked the sales girl in to give advice on how to wear a bra.. i felt so shy at first and wondering from where the guts came from; but i did it! She then taught me a lot, from how to choose the right cup, to how to adjust the bra. She even do it for me! help me to wear the bra, adjust the bra strap, help me push my "fats" into the cup *blush*.. lesson learned!!! i bought another 2 from her then. Oh guess what, after i paid, she helped me to apply for membership card and i'm entitled to do a lucky spin.. Guess what again!! i got a camisole which worth $39.90!!! it's the most expensive gift among all the prizes. What a lucky day~~ *lovely*

Well, this is not the most luckiest thing of the day.. oh what's then?? hehehe.. the luckiest thing is i got it FULL sponsorship for all these lovely bras!!! @.@~~ lol

Update: just calculated again and got to know that i have save $86 for buying them today vs the usual price.. @,@!!! it's $21.5 per piece. i love shopping! i love sales!!

湖边的一副画

昨天心血来潮的,我一个人步行到我家附近的公园去,想说跑一跑.到那里时,天已经逐渐黑了.想想还是别跑了..就去到公园的湖边坐下,吹吹凉风,看看风景的. 由于天色渐黑,公园里的人也越来越少. 湖堤边早已坐着两对情侣,还有个老伯坐在树下的木椅上.我找了个空旷位子,舒舒服服的坐下来看风景.
每天只为了上班下班的我,来到了这个寂静的公园,感觉真的很不一样.很轻松很自在.听着小鸟的吱吱声,树林里发出来的沙沙声,看着湖里鱼儿伐起的涟漪和天色从蓝色慢慢渲染成橙色,然后慢慢的暗去..真的好想一副画.

因为是用Iphone拍下来的,所以素质不是很好..

2 years anniversary

Time flies so fast that it is already my 2nd year anniversary here in Singapore working with this company.
The scene of me crying together with my mum on the night before i left home is still clearly reflects on my mind. i still remember she holding my hand with tears on her face just like she is sending me off. sigh.
2 years..2 years passed just like a click of eyes. Time passed so fast here when life is so mundane. Everyday, wake up, work, off work, sleep.. life here is so boring and if you don't fill up your life with more joy, it is so so so dull.
Hope i could be more mature on decision making and problem solving and learn from all the passed mistake... good luck, JO!

整容

最近不知道是看太多韩剧,竟然想说要去整容!
哈哈..可能韩剧里的演员都长得太完美了,看一看自己好像...

想想,做个鼻子吧..我的鼻子很扁耶,带眼镜整天要去推高它,不然眼镜好像要掉落似的,整个人看起来就好像阿嬷一样.
再想想,做了鼻子之后,就割个双眼皮吧,眼睛单单的看上去一点精神都没有.
想着想着,说着说着..自己都快笑出来了..
长得那么大,从来都没有想过要在自己身上动刀的人,竟然也会想整容..笑死人了.
哎,我总是在想,那些整容的人到底是下了多少的决心才敢让整容师在自己的脸,身体上动刀..那勇气是我觉得很佩服的.为了变美,在所不惜.佩服呀!
身体发肤授之父母,别说是整容了,我连拔牙都不敢..还谈何整容..

彻彻底底..

那天回家,想想我最近真的很久才会回家一次,所以心血来潮的就开始整理房间.
把一些我少穿的衣服整理出来,好让我妈妈把这些衣服送给西藏贫苦地区的孩子.
同时也把一些读过的书信整理一下,不要的就丢,要的就收好..
翻啊翻的,竟然发现了一个盒子.

盒子里的东西曾经是很美好的,悲痛的记忆和想封锁的过去.打开这个盒子,就好像打开了我封锁已久的部分记忆,突然全涌了上来.比起以前,现在的我对于盒子里面的东西已经失去了当时的那种感觉.
相片里我身边那个人早已人事以非..望着那张脸孔,感觉是多么的陌生.仿佛我根本就不认识这个人.我尝试去回想,回想以前我们在一起的情景,但是怎么也想不起来...感觉上就好像发了一场梦,梦醒了你我不过是个擦肩而过的俩个人.
转眼间,我和能已经在一起快5年了,5年来很谢谢他对我呵呼有佳,而不至于让我回想起曾经不愉快的往事,彻底的放下了过去的一段情.谢谢你.
过去的早已过去,剩下的也无须在去追忆了,于是我把盒子里的照片,礼物都丢了..将来我只需要望着前方,把握当下就是了...

不要放肆!

最近,发现我真的很会吃.嘴巴总是不停的在吃东西.
总是觉得嘴痒痒的想咬东西..真是糟糕!
上星期趁工干回家一趟,妈妈煮了很多美食,我也是吃了很多.一天最少4餐,而且份量可不小哦.
回来之后感觉肥了不少,秤了秤好象又没有比较重.但是那个肚皮还真的不小叻!
啊啊!!!!可怕呀. 我一直对自己说不可以这么放肆的吃东西了,可是好像控制不了耶!
现在和以前真的不一样..以前气球体质,要肥就肥,要瘦也不是很难!现在不同了.现在好肥很容易,想瘦...难得很啊!!
陈冠如!你不要那么放肆!给我管好自己...在肥下去,你就惨了!

礼尚往来

礼尚往来，来而不往非礼也。
这一句谚语只要是有上中文教育的孩子都应该要懂的。。。
对于那些没有受中文教育的人，竟然完全不懂！
难道英文就没有类似这句谚语的POEM吗？
真是搞不懂，那些没受中文教育的孩子，除了英文讲得比较好之外，到底学了什么？
将来我的孩子一定要受中文教育！

好几次了，我想晒衣，如果有她的衣服，我收下来了也会顺手折一折。
但是往往她想晒衣了，我的衣服就会被收下来丢在一旁。折起来有很花你时间吗？
如果真的没有时间那跟我说，我收我折就好了嘛。

礼尚往来你不懂，你做初一我做十五你不会不懂吧?你想要我这样对你吗？

下一站,幸福

终于把下一站,幸福看完了!!

之前不是没有时间看,而是一直持着偏见,一味的认为这套偶像剧一定没什么看头.即便很多朋友看了之后都说很赞,我还是把它搁置一旁.
终于在我闷得慌的时候,翻一翻电脑存档发现了这部戏,勉为其难的开始看.
看了看后发现故事真的很棒,也演的很好.我只能说真的很好看.

之前我一直觉得吴建豪是个不会演戏的花瓶,看完后我感想是他真的进步了很多很多,比起以前在流星花园里扮演的美作,真的好太多了.影像最深刻的是他在医院里接受手术前诊断,被医务人员抽取骨髓的那一幕.那一幕让我觉得他真的痛到..我心也跟着痛.真的很赞,还没看请找时间看一看.

另外,我也想特别推荐这首歌<亲人>,个人很喜欢,听了很有FU..

分享:感动

也许你曾经读过这篇文章.很感动,让强忍眼泪读完它...请别用有色眼镜来看待别人.学习以不同立场不同角度来辨别是非黑白,别被假象蒙蔽.

一天,一个盲人带着他的导盲犬过街时,一辆大卡车失去控制,直冲过来,盲人当场被撞 死,他的导盲犬为了守卫主人, 也一起惨死在车轮底下。主人和狗一起到了天堂门前。一个天使拦住他俩,为难地说:对不起,现在天堂只剩下一个名额,你们两个中必须有一个去地狱。主人一听,连忙问:我的狗又不知道什么是天堂,什么是地狱,能不能让我来决定谁去天堂呢？ 天使鄙视地看了这个主人一样,皱起了眉头,她想了想,说:很抱歉,先生,每一个灵魂都 是平等的,你们要通过比赛决 定由谁上天堂。主人失望地问:哦,什么比赛呢？天使说:这个比赛很简单,就是赛跑,从这里跑到天堂的大门,谁先到达目的地,谁就可以上天堂。不过,你也别担心, 因为你已经死了,所以不再是瞎子,而且灵魂的速度跟肉体无关,越单纯善良的人速度越 快。主人想了想,同意了。天使让主人和狗准备好,就宣布赛跑开始。她满心以为主人为了进天堂,会拼命往前 奔,谁知道主人一点也不忙,慢吞 吞地往前走着。更令天使吃惊的是,那条导盲犬也没有奔跑,它配合着主人的步调在旁 边慢慢跟着,一步都不肯离开主人。天使恍然大悟:原来,多年来这条导盲犬已经养成了习惯,永远跟着主人行动,在主人的前方守护着他。可恶的主人, 正是利用了这一点,才 胸有成竹,稳操胜券,他只要在天堂门口叫他的狗停下就可以了。天使看着这条忠心耿耿的狗,心里很难过,她大声对狗说:你已经为主人献出了生命,现 在,你这个主人不再是瞎子,你也不用领着他走路了,你快跑进天 堂吧! 可是,无论是主人还是他的狗,都像是没有听到天使的话一样,仍然慢吞吞地地往前 走,好像在街上散步似的。果然,离终点还有几步的时候,主人发出一声口令,狗听话地坐下了,天使用鄙视的眼神 看着主人。 这时,主人笑了,他扭过头对天使说:我终于把我的狗送到天堂了,我最担心的就是它根 本不想上天堂,只想跟我在一起...... 所以我才想帮它决定,请你照顾好它。天使愣住了。主人留恋地看着自己的狗,又说:能够用比赛的方式决定真是太好了,只要我再让它往 前走几步,它就可以上天堂了。不过它陪伴了我那么多年,这是我第一次可以用自己的 眼睛看着它,所以我忍不住想要慢慢地走,多看它一会儿。如果可以的话,我真希望永远 看着它走下去。不过天堂到了,那才是它该去的地方,请你照顾好它。 说完这些话,主人向狗发出了前进的命令,就在狗到达终点的一刹那,主人像一片羽毛似 的落向了地狱的方向。他的狗见了,急忙掉转头,追着主人狂奔。满心懊悔的天使张开 翅膀追过去,想要抓住导盲犬,不过那是世界上最纯洁善良的灵魂,速度远比天堂所有的 天使都快。所以导盲犬又跟主人在一起了,即使是在地狱,导盲犬也永远守护着它的主 人。 天使久久地站在那里,喃喃说道:我一开始就错了,这两个灵魂是一体的,他们不能分开...... 最后，我要说：这个世界上,真相只有一个,可是在不同人眼中,却会看出不同的是非曲直。这是为什么呢？其实,道理很简单,因为每个人看待事物,都不可能站在绝对客观公正的立场上,而是或多或少地戴上有色眼镜,用自己的经验、好恶和道德标准来进 行评判,结果就是-- 我们看到了假象。

终于...

讲了很多次,想了又想,等啊等..终于等到了这一天.
我终于买了去台湾的飞机票啦!!!! 哇...终于都买了.
从以前就一直很想去台湾观光,但是飞机票贵,口袋又空..想了很久还是下不了手.记得前年末看见亚航的promotion,来回才RM485.那时候我知道这个价格绝对是最便宜了.可惜当时正当经济萧条,深怕工作不保的我,不敢冒险.后来经济开始复苏了,机票就一直在涨,最低也要RM650. 虽然RM650也不算很高,但别忘了我还需要从小新飞到吉隆坡,又是一笔费用.至于新加坡直飞台湾,最便宜也要大概S$500-$600之间.贵啊!

终于,等到了虎航开辟新航线到台湾..我以S$350(包括机场税和20KG的luggage)买下了明年3月的机票.开心到...终于要去台湾了!!!!

粗心大意

昨天去逛街,买了一见衣服,谁知今天想找那件新衣时却发现不见了.
原来是我这粗心大意的人把它遗留在昨天吃午餐的餐厅里. @.@!!!
好彩那件衣服只是$9.90,不是很贵重的东西,否则我真的是会...唉!
为什么我总是那么粗心大意!我记得小时候妈妈最怕就是我帮她提东西.我可以一边提一边丢的.要不就是我放下来后,我就忘了要把它们再提起来了.
唉,有时我在想,如果我也可以轻易的把烦恼放下,然后把它们遗留在某个地方,不再提起,那该有多好呢?

宽容别人，善待自己

今天读到一篇文章，标题：宽容别人，就等于宽容自己。
很多时候因为没有办法原谅别人的所做所为，对于某些事情总是耿耿于怀，无法放下。也因为无法放下，在生气别人的当儿，我同时也背负着沉重的担子。被生气的人不见得知道我在生气，而我却因为放不下而不开心。

很多时候我们总是“宽以律己，严以待人”，希望别人都应该是这样或是那样，但是往往当我们对别人的期望越高时，失望也越大，最终受伤害的还是自己。

以前参与慈济的时候，总是把知足，感恩，善解，包容挂在嘴边，但说的出却不代表做得到。说真的对于知足，感恩，善解，包容，我个人认为最难的还是包容；要先懂得知足，才会心存感恩，善解后才得以包容。

前几天看了一封转载的邮件，看见了一些证严法师对于一些问题的回答。

如何才能不與人計較？
證嚴上人回答：真正自愛的人，是不會與人計較的。自愛不是私愛，若能自愛，相對的也能對他人尊重。如同天平的兩頭，一頭下垂，另一頭就上升。你若與人斤斤計較，人格就會低落；你若謙恭低下，人格就會昇華。然而只有強忍是不夠的，還要吞下去，再把它消化，到什麼都沒有為止。如果一再計較，只會徒增是非煩惱而已。所以要內修謙虛─將心擴大，人人都能包容；外修禮儀─將自己縮小，鑽入人人的心坎裡。所謂「公修公得，婆修婆得，不修不得」，若別人以壞聲色待你，不要與他計較，而應更用心自我反省─是哪一點沒做好，而令別人有所不滿？找出癥結後力求改進，直到令人見了就歡喜。如果是對方錯誤，我們應該憐憫他、耐心地輔導他。如此便能一團和氣，彼此和睦相處，也就不會有計較的事端發生了。

好一句强忍是不够的，还要吞下去，再把它消化到什么都没有为此。好有智慧的回答。
其实师公说得对，一再计较只会增加自身的烦恼而已。
是时候要善待自己了。
看完这篇部落，希望你也和我一样，学习放下，宽容别人，善待自己。

My one and only

Can't stop myself of loving him..my one and only idol.. JJ Lin

Movie: Despicable Me

Finally i went to watch this animation that i wanted to watch 2 weeks ago!
it's another nice animation that you should not miss!
if you are stress, just take a break and watch this cute animation and stress will be off!

Overall Experience: Very funny and stress off animation. story line is simple but cute and i had a great laugh. love the cute tiny yellow thingy that wear blue jump suits. so damn cute!! hehe..

Dissapointed

Dissapointment!!!

Getting really frustrated when I'm always the person who care about the cleanliness of this house! It's annoyed that nobody bother to care! You don't care, I care! But why?! Why must I be the only person who care? Why am I the one who always do the cleaning? I' getting so super irritated when it's so dirty and dusty and eveyone jz so blind to ignore it!

If u think u are busy, me too! If u think you have other things more important then doing cleaning, me too! If you can shake yor leg watching animation/ drama episode/ Paktor with your bf and have no time to do this shit cleaning job, then why should I?!
If you think you guys can leave this shit jobs for me, then I'm sorry. I quit! I quit! Yes, I quit!!!

If you think saying :'if you don't want to do, you can tell me and i will do' is comforting me then you are totally wrong! What I'm asking is a fair square, why only me? And why only you!? It's not only us staying in this place, why should the rest of them taking granted!? It's not fair!! You are not solving the problem, you are just trying to comfort my grievances! Can't I complain?! Can't I have my right to voice out my unhapiness!? Why am I always get your expression that I'm so calculative, so un-tolerate! Why?! I am very fed-up! I try not to complaint and even not comment but I feel very unhappy. I thought you were there to share my feeling but everytime when I finally released to you, I get the accuse of not being understanding. This is tiring and I believe you are as tiring as me.

Dissapointed!

Movie: Inception

Watched this movie by Ronaldo DiCaprio on last saturday. It is a highly recommended movie with great review. I don't know about this movie until my colleague told me how good was the review and it won like 4.5/5 rating movie from most of the person who watched this movie before.

it's quite a long movie with 2 hours 30mins show time. The movie is about Dom Cobb (Ronaldo DiCaprio) who is a skill thief who stealing secret from others' mind while dreaming. Due to a failed mission, he was offerred by his "target" to incept an idea or thought into his competitor's son mind.

Overall experience: The story line is quite unique and nice. It definitely worth the value and time to watch this movie. Thumb up!

Trailer for you...

Fine Dining

i have never experience a "fine dining" until i had one last night. Thanks to keebs who was promoted to Manager.

Lobster and Chicken Wellington

Surf and Turf

the group photo

Checked in wikipedia and found this "Fine dining restaurants are full service restaurants with specific dedicated meal courses. Décor of such restaurants feature higher quality materials with an eye towards the "atmosphere" desired by the restaurateur. The wait staff is usually highly trained and often wears more formal attire. Fine-dining restaurants are almost always small businesses and are generally either single-location operations or have just a few locations. Food portions are smaller but more visually appealing as well."

Actually before we came across this restaurant "Lawry's The Prime Rib", we been to some other restaurant, and our friend said: "this is not fine dining", then we found this restaurant nearby. It's my 1st time tried this so called "fine dining".

Overall experience: food is good, price is no doubt expensive, ambience is eye catching. However, i don't feel that i'm fine dining person. I'm just not so into it.

Discount voucher

Few weeks ago, I received a 50% voucher posted to my mailing address from Ahava who is a beauty product brand like the face shop and skin food. With this 50% voucher, I"ve been thinking if I have anything to purchase from their shop and enjoy this so called 50% discount. However, I'm only using their hand cream and not intended to buy another 1 because I only used up like less than 20% after I purchased for more than half years.

So I went to that shop to check out if there is something suitable for me. After a glance, I saw their best selling shampoo and The price is not cheap. So I asked the sales girl if the voucher is applicable to everything in the shop. She said yes and then she lead me to one of their most expensive item and said "this is most worth it because you can save more". I took a look and realized the price is $84 and understand I would save $42 if I purchased that. It is a beauty serum that can help to replenish nutrient, refine skin and all sort of benefits.
I didn't buy it anyway because I forgot to bring the voucher with me so I told her I will come back again.

After that I went back and surfed from the net on the review of this beauty serum. Looks like the reviews are average good. With all the positive comment, I have decided to try it out, somehow I can save $42. Sounds great, right?
No, I didn't buy it at last and the voucher was expired 2 days ago. Reason behind is am I really need that beauty foru
? Am I really save of $42? From the beginning, i have nothing to buy from their shop. However, just because i want to fully utilize that voucher, I going to buy their highest range product to maxize my saving value. That is not right, right? I don't have to spend the 1st $42 to get myself a saving of $42! If I need this product, yes it has indeed a saving, but it's not for my case whereby I only want to use up the voucher and simply find somthing to buy.

I'm lucky finally I get this point and stop myself from spending unwisely.

真实最可爱（脾气没了，福气来了）

"很多时候，我们希望自己能更讨人喜欢，更有魅力，所以我们聪明的察颜观色，进而利用自己并不具有的人格特质去讨好别人，以达到某种目的。
因为身为社会的一分子，人不可能完全跳开社会角色、物质、地位与职业；于是，我们都希望得到更多人尊重与喜欢，希望别人对自己另眼相看。
所以我们学会伪装自己，带上假面，覆上重重的保护色，让自己成为一只变色龙，穿梭在不同场合中。
然而，在回到自己一个人独处的空间时，因疲累而叹息，因为逐渐不认识自己而流泪..."

读到这里我的泪差点落下！写得很真实，我就是那么一个顶着一副面具，没有自信，深怕弱点暴露在别人面前的人。
虚伪的以为隐藏真实的自我才会过的好一点！孰不知，我一直在压抑自己也迷失了自己！又有谁会知道好多时候，我会因为过度压抑而在偷偷哭泣，有谁明白很多时候我很讨厌虚假的我。
小心翼翼，思前顾后很多时候只会换来一句＂你很假！＂
真诚相待难道又会换来一句＂你很真＂吗？
反正真诚或虚伪都未必能换来我们想要的认同，不是吗？
那何不做我自己，最起码不用压抑自己讨好别人！

省省省...

节省是一种美德,你拥有这种美德吗?
对于这问题,我不知道该如何回答.说我节省也行,说我花钱如流水也不为过呀!果真有够矛盾的.
说真的,工作了5年,前3年赚的零吉到这两年的新币,我又省下了多少呢?真是残念!

想起以前读书时候,因为家里的经济不太好,4年的大学生涯是靠我省吃减用的挨过来的.靠着政府贷款,我4年来没有跟家人要过一分钱.
一毕业,我很快就找到了份还不错的工作,领着一份虽不多但却足够让我在不久之后支付我那小车的头期钱和一个手提式电脑.领了薪水,25%供车,35%负担家庭,剩下的真的不多,更别说能省下多少.

后来因缘聚足,我来到了新加坡.一开始人生地不熟,我能省则省,那时候还真的可以收一点小钱.但后来男朋友跟过来了,有伴了,也慢慢熟悉了这里的生活方式,我开始不拘小节,出手还算大方的.买东西的欲望从来没有停止过.买这买那的,只要一出门,一定不会空手而返.很糟糕吧..

说说你怎么省钱吧.是不是应该设定一个目标,才比较容易啊?
有的人以买屋子为目标,有的人因为要结婚,有的人因为想去旅行,有的人甚至因为想买哪个名牌包包而努力的拼经济.

来分享如何省钱吧..让我们一起朝目标努力吧..

你有阅读的习惯吗?

你是一个喜欢看书的人吗? 有阅读的习惯吗?
我觉得我不是一个爱书之人,不是说我不喜欢读书,但最起码不会到爱不释手的程度吧.有的人真的可以无时无刻都拿着一本书在看..走路也在看,等车也在看,站也看,坐也看,管他电车里的人是多到连站都有点难,他们还是在看!真不得不服啊!

回想从前,我看过最多的书籍或许就是课本和一些学业上有需要的课业参考书吧.读书读书,我记得从小妈妈就灌输我们要读好书,将来才能有所作为.可是,我觉得我妈教育我们的方法是读好书,考个好成绩,而并非培养阅读的习惯.当然这绝对是我个人的看法.事实上,我家的书橱里摆着最少上百本各种各样的书籍.这些书籍多数是我哥和我妈买的,我买的最多不超过20本,以言情小说为大多数.哈哈,这得感谢我当年年少时对爱情的憧憬.

毕业之后,没有了学业的压力,我失去了读书的理由;想说我需要的不一定能在书里的到. 即便是读好了书,考了个还算不错的成绩,那有怎么样?我一样只是个领薪过日子的打工仔而已.毕业了5年,这5年来我不是没有买过书来看,买了好几本时尚杂志,学着杂志里的模特儿如何变潮变美,照着杂志里介绍的商品买了一样又一样..我其实得到了什么?我还是我,一直很追风的在潮流边缘打混,跟不上也放不下.来这里之前,我买了2本英文书(The five things we cannot change和The Monk who sold his ferrari),算是励志书籍.买下它们的时候,我想说一个人过来这里,(当时我先过来,男朋友两个月后才来)一定很难打发时间.买两本书看看,一来可以消磨时间,二来可以增长智慧.哈哈,这两本书到今天就两年了还完好的放在书橱里.不只如此,人就是不懂得珍惜所拥有的,未曾拥有的才是最好的.记得很久以前在慈济静思书轩里看见了一本名为<相约星期二>,翻了几面之后就对这本书有很深刻的影响,所以当我在新加坡看见英文版的Tuesday with Morrrie时,我没多想就买下了.很可惜这本书还是被我放一边去了.可惜呀可惜!

哦,废话写了太多了,上文只是想说,我良心发现了!哈哈.最近才开始要培养这别人可能早就有的好习惯,没错!就是阅读啦!为什么叫阅读呢? 要读得愉悦才算阅读吧,否则应该只算是看完了一本书,对吗? 说真的新加坡这里还真的蛮提倡读书风气的,这里几乎每一区都有一间图书馆,别看小这些公共图书馆喔,它可是应有尽有哦,设施也是相当先进的.只要你是这里的公民或永久居民,你都可享受免费借书.这下肯本不需要买书啦!

我这个人就是贪小便宜,不用钱的,不借白不借,上个月一次过借了3本.每次借书有3个星期的期限,我用了2个星期才看完第一本蔡智恒的<孔雀森林>,然后在用剩下的一个星期看完第二本台湾主播夫妻档永康和佩珊的<聪明省钱过好日>,在用一天的时间把最后一本日本侦探小说家赤川次朗的<三毛猫追踪>给读完.昨天晚上拼到一点多的结论是,原来看书也能看的那么的投入,也可以很拼!还可以领略到生活上一些我们不太会去关注的事情.不错不错!

今天,兴致勃勃的带这3本书去还,顺代又借了3本.希望这次不会半路出家,又放弃了,加油!有空在分享书中所得吧.



P.s.:终于写完了,好长的一篇.好急..尿道快爆了. :(

心理测验

来做个心理测验吧。
最近在看着蔡智恒孔雀森林，里面就有一个这样的心理测验。

你在森林里养了好几种动物，马、牛、羊、老虎、孔雀。如果有一天你必须离开森林，而且只能带一种动物离开，你会带哪种动物？

不要想太多，只要凭第一时间的反应作答，才会准哦！

如果有人回应，我会发表测验的答案。

解答来啦...
马 = 自由
牛 = 事业
羊 = 爱情
老虎 = 自尊
孔雀 = 金钱

你觉得你的答案准吗? 我的第一个答案是马,逻辑思维是我觉得马可以快速的带我离开. 牛,羊,老虎和孔雀只会脱慢进度..我是这样想的...
如果你问我,那么马/自由真的是我向往的吗? 我想在某个程度上,它是准确的.我确实酷爱自由,不喜欢被人约束,也不能被人摆布.但是同时我也觉得或许我并不是一个可以接受100%自由的人.我还是会想要有人在身边管管我,说说我.那感觉踏实多了,最起码我不会觉得很空虚寂寞.

至于如果我知道了测验解答之后,我会这么选,我想我有可能会选老虎吧!
或许我就是一个自尊心比男人还要重的大女人吧.
为了面子,有时侯会做一些傻事.(有机会在分享吧)

你呢?解答前和解答后,你还会选一样的动物吗?

Blog reactivated

Today, i was reminded by my dearest friend- Eve that i have an abandoned blog...infact i have 2.. one is this and the other one is my new life blog that i created when i came to Singapore. (try to login but failed- forgot password again)

Read some of the posts and entry that i logged here, is like my diary recorded all the happiness and upset that i encountered...but something missed! I've been quit sharing for more than a years.. and i lost track of what i have done during this 1 year.. time flies, it's almost coming to 2 years since i came to singapore. i have all the sour sweet bitter spice.

i remembered the last post i posted was about my bad luck in the other blog..i said i wanted to be more active, join more friends, more activity, be more cheerful.. Ends up one year plus, i did nothing! Still, i got very less friend, i stay at home most of the time after work and weekend, and i gave all sort of excuses to not join and mix with ppl i don't really know..haha how pathetic!?

i gonna reactivate this blog...at least this is the only way for me to throw my tantrum, to seek my balance of life..