Pretender or High EQ?

Do you feel of laughing or smiling even though you are not really happy?
Lately, one of my colleague keep asking me to smile.. and i was wondering..why? Why is he always asked me to smile... Today i was like come on! i always smile! What's going on to yoU! and he told me that... i know you are not happy, although there's a smile on your face.

I keep thinking about his words.. but it doesn't annoyed me much! Today when i was at the petrol station, someone reversed his car and knocked on mine! A minor crash and my heart was like... OMG~!!! very nervous and worry..but gosh...the silly smile is still hanging on my face..and i told my friend..Is ok..nvm..

All the way back..i was like lost my soul..but i am still smiling! Crazy and funny... What is going on to me? Am i turn to be a pretender or i have an upgraded EQ?! Cannot believe that...

Afterall, i start to think back what my colleague told me! "I know you are not happy, although you are smiling!" What a pity! I am so fake!

I don't know my feeling now, actually i just don't know! sometime i just feel i am so tired..especially when someone still trying to challenge my emotion by arguing about some issue like crying baby...Really fed up sometime.. Anyway, i successfully protect my emotion by avoiding the condition to turn bad! boring! Arghh....