Friendship?

Do you trust there will be true friendship in working environment?
Do you believe that?
Yes i do. I sincerely be friend with some person and we getting closer and closer...
Slowly and slowly, we became someone that can share certain level of privacy.
We supporting each others..and helping each others..
From other person eyes, we are close friends... and i believe that...we are close friends..

I always think that when you treat someone good, people will treat you good. This is always my principle. I hope to get the same treatment from others. But since long time ago, i knew it was not correct. You give someone apple, does not mean they will return you an apple. They can give you orange, or others. Giving and receiving might not be tally. I knew it earlier. But for me, inner heart of me, i still remember this.

Since i was small, i have a very close friend, we went to same tuition, taken same bus to school, always be together.. joining same society..ends up...she ignore me for no reason. I feel sad and cry for a week. This happened when i was in form 1.

Still in secondary school, i have another close friend..getting closer and closer to me, because she sat besides me in the class for 3 years. We have done a lot together..ends up, she told me she hates me because she jealous of me. This happened when i was in form 5.

With hope, joined university and still think if you treat someone good, she treats you good in return. There, I met a girl.. we became closer and closer...but ends up she still always make me crying secretly at nite. But doesn't matter..

During that moment, i have another good friend, same class with me, we were so good and close..and ends up i been backstab for free. She is the one make me cried uncontrollable on the street...It happened when i doing industrial training in Penang..

Of coz...out of those close friends.. there's still one..my ex. He is the most disappointed part.

After i graduated... i joined this company. I became more aware. Aware of giving out true friendship and feeling. But i do...and i get hurt!

Last night, when everything refresh in my mind, i realized one thing. I easily cry. Cannot control my tears.. hehe.. but i know...my heart is squeezing painfully again and again....