New Life Challenge

Lately, i have been offerred a new challenge. It was a job.

How should i say? Ermm... okie.

2 Weeks ago, one of my division head called me up and told me that management has a plan to form up a new group..or it should be called a department...
Well, forming up a department is not what i shall be control, however.. i have been offerred to join this new group and be the pioneer of the group.

To be more specific, it is a group to create or write service manual..
You must be thinking, what is service manual??? Service manual is a manual written for servicemen to carry out service and repair of our products.

Frankly speaking, i has nothing in my mind about service manual when my div head spoke to me about this job. I have totally no idea what the heck is that? What is the job function? What am i going to do and how hard is that??? All in my mind was jz wow!!! Great opportunity!! I can drop all my "Shit" job now and get my new life!!! Everything become so easy and wonderful as i only see the good side of dropping my current job and the "benefit" of taking up a new job... Haha... But i am not that desperate and i told him i will consider it. {but deep in my heart, there's voices coming out and say YES!YES! YES!!! - very loud}..

I don't much considering it because at that moment, i am truly happy and don't actually analyze the difficulty and challengeable of forming up a new department. So, the next week, i told him.. Boss, I am IN!

He seems to be very happy and soon enough my sector head give me a call and ask me to meet him. When i sat down in front of him, he starts to smile and said "Well, i think you have heard about your new challenge", "To be frank, you are alone and i am going to say that this is a very tough job"...{i started to sweat} ... and he starts to praise me.. "I see that this is a very tough job and i know i have to get someone who have clear mind and very powerful... And i know you are very powerful although you are young"..{Shit!!!...i starting to get colder and colder}.. Afterall, i don't remember what he told me.

Guess why am i so pressure? Come ON. First and foremost, i am the only one! I am alone and even if i die, i am going to die alone. That's a major problem! Second thing is that my boss has very high expectation on me.. i cannot fail him. No..not only i cannot fail him.. I shall show him very good result. You know what he did another day? He introduces me to another japanese boss and the first thing he mentioned to him is "she is very powerful". Gosh!! If you weren't saying that, i would have feeling better. I guess he is trying to motivate me with those "Sweet" words.. but it indirectly make me feel stress.

You know what i feel after the meeting? I felt like someone is sitting on my shoulder. After the meeting, when i walked out from the meeting room... i felt great pains on my shoulder, jz like a there's thousands tones of burden dropped on me!

Well.. recently i been busying meeting and meeting, collecting data, reading back those service manual created by Japan SM Group, interviewing designers, and prepare report. Really pressuring. Whenever am i, i am thinking of my new "Challenge"....

Anyhow, although it is much pressuring.. i still like it.. because as i first mentioned..i can drop my "shit" job while learning more knowledge and skills... and of coz if compare to my current job, it has brighter future and better market value.