Family

Are you with your family? Do you love them?
I'm growing in a big family.
Whenever i said that, other will asked "Big Family?, There's only your parents, your brother & you!, How big is that?"
Normally to those i am not so close with, I will only smile back and say "ya"..jz lazy of explaining.
But to those close one, i will said "I have 2 mothers, my mum is the 2nd wife of my dad and we have total 10 siblings" Can it consider big family? No doubt!

Living in a big family isn't easy, some more my mum is 2nd wife. Anyone who heard about 2nd wife will think that my mum is the bad lady who stole my dad's love. I do not know what's the fact when my mum be with my dad. My big mum {dad's big wife} passed away due to cancer while i was in 7 yrs old. Then dad stayed together with us.

When i start to grow up bigger and bigger, i understand one theory. Even though we are so called this one big family, but those step brothers and sisters still unable to accept my mum, me and my brother. Sad to say that i always lies when my close friends ask me how's our relationship, i always said "we are very happy family". In Actual, is jz another scenario.

Everyone in this house is jz pretending to be good in front of dad. Behind us, they jz complaining and speaking a lot that i don't even want to mention here.
Day by day, they don't even come to visit dad. Some will comes once per month, some can only seen the face in cny. Really embarrassing. But what did they said? They said we {mum, bro & me} have take away dad from them. How can they say that, they don't even care about dad!!

But who knows about the fact behind. We do! Dad knew too. Without Mum, i don't think dad able to live until today 76 yrs old.
So many yrs, living in this so called "big family", i learned a lot of ability and i admit that i am very sensitive. Somehow, i think i'm also a pretender.

Frankly, i jealous those who have simple family. I wanted to be simply. No pretending, no accusing, no pinpoint..no hurt.